**TotallY Shattered**

Went shopping with Ser today. Headed to BakerzInn to fill our stomach first so got energy to shop mah.... Anyway didnt buy much though, spent about $60 plus... devil Ser kept psycho-ing me to buy more... No $$ how to buy more....

Anyway we shopped till around 9 plus then we headed to Mac for dinner. Then suddenly my mood swing again... Its always between 9 to 12 that I start to feel depressed. This is the time whereby he will always call me... I really missed him very much... The last time I contacted him was on Thursday...Its like only been 1 day that I did not contact him but its seems so f**king long....

In the end I called him when I reached home. We talked as per normal, mainly about me intending to get a shih tzu... Then he told me he got to go back to work... I then asked him, 'Do you miss me?', which I badly wans to know. Disappointingly, he said 'No. I will call you if I miss you.' At that instance, my heart shattered. Aft 3.5 yrs together, he dun even miss me a damn bit. For the past 3.5 yrs, I have been a failure in relationship. He really disappoint me. From that moment onwards, I told myself never to contact him again.
NEVER EVER!!!
I dun wan to continue being a fool. I deleted his messages, his number (though I can still remember in my head), photos, everything from my hp. However I can't stop myself thinking of all the happy memories we had, the promises he made.. every single thing reminds me of him... For now I just have to let myself cry all out until I fall asleep each night. Hope this does not last too long...

P.S: To Ser :"Enjoy ur Genting trip with Garfield.... Hope to see you soon... Thanx for being there when I am down..."