**What Am I Doing...**

He has automatic sms & call me last nite... I was happy but I saw him having dinner with his ex jus now... I was very very very affected... I oso duno y... I duno if I really like him or jus a crush... He sent her home then went to Addicted.. where we met again... Am I expectiong too much? Perhaps.. Like wat he said.. he dun tell pple his inner feelings & tots... so that how he behave in public... Cool... I cannot... I have made a fool of myself tonite... after so long.. I cried again... Cos of him ... cos of the past.. I just felt sad..end of the day I am not happy.. Guess he is pissed that I behaved like tat... I was not happy that he cannot send me back.. but again he got 2nd round with his frans since they r down... he winked to me that he got to go with them... I have to be understanding... Y wasnt I tonite? He is not obliged to send me back afterall.. I am really expecting too much... but again.. I am really falling for him.. feeling is terrible... I dun wana think about it.. I wished I can jus slp & nvr wake up.. no need to think wat is he thinking actually... no need to have the terrible feeling again... I hate this feeling....