**Definite|Y OveR**

Met Ser around 5 today @ Marina Square... Supposedly we planned for 'window shopping' but in the end, we spent $$ again... Ser bought a bag & 2 shoes while I got a blouse & skirt... We simply cant resist the attraction of GSS... Ser got a dog handphone accessory & a pair of cute earrings for me from KL...

~~My New Doggy HP Accessory~~

~~Dinner @ NYDC~~

~~I Simply Love SoftToys, esp e NYDC Teddy~~

I finally contacted him today... SMS him 'when will he be able to return me the $$'... He replied he will transfer to me shortly... Ser was glad that he is returning me the $$... however at that point of time I feel that this is the end for both of us... though by right,it had been over 3 weeks ago... but I cant stop feeling this way... I dun have an excuse to contact him anymore cos he dun owe me anything already... We will become just like strangers... I suddenly have the strong urge to contact him (though I mention previously that I will never ever contact him). I finally called & conversation was very short...Despite me calling him, I have nothing to say... In fact, I do have things to say to him... I wan to tell him I miss him so much... I cant stop thinking of him each & everyday... I wan to ask him if he does miss me.... But I cant say all these... I am scared of his reaction & answers... Stupid me in the end still go & sms him.

Me to Him: "Is it really the end for us? Is there any way we will be back together?"
Him to Me: "I think it is. I dont want to lead you on. Pls dont think of the unnecessary."

Me to Him: "Unnecesssary? U think our 3.5yrs relationship as unnecessary?"

Him to Me: 'Not that. I think that you thinking too much is unnecessary.Move on with your life. Dont waste it on me."

Me to Him: "I am unlike you. Can easily move on jus like that after so long."

Him to Me: "Ya. That's y I'm not worth your time. Forget me. You have to for your own sake".

I am utterly disappointed & heartborken. I cant even stop thinking about him... let alone forget him....But I have to...I am left with no other options.... Ser reminded me of the lot... 'There will be someone better ahead.... Jus be patient".... I will... All these just take time... I have to learn to be strong...