**Getting OveR OnCe Aga|N*

I felt alright when I woke up this morning... in fact I felt a sense of satisfaction for what I wrote in my last entry... I am not really good in describing my feelings esp in writting.. but I managed to so last night... Anyway my mood changes after lunch... oso duno y... but i miss him again... I even went to listen back the past happy conversations we used to have which were recorded on my hp... Brought back many nice memories... For a moment, I thought everything was back to normal... I do really wished so... Can what happened this past 1 mth plus just be a nightmare? I want to wake up tomorrow with everything back to normal... all these are killing me....

Went to suntec with Elaine after work.. as we walked along Citylink... I told her why dun we exit out of Citylink that is leading to Marina Sq... She ignored me though... I kept pestering her but she continue walking straight.. I noe she is doing this for my own good... but I want to see him... maybe he is downstairs smoking... see awhile oso I happy liao...
Nope... In the end we did not walk past his work place afterall...

I was seeing myself at the mirror today & I looked fuckingly ugly... So pale just like a sick person... Hai~ how come eveything end up in this way? Just cos of a bitch, he can become so unreasonable.... I still cant bring myself to believe that he can do all these to me after being together for 3.5yrs ....I cant even be compared to a bitch he has been together for a mth....
Disappointed.... Really disappointed in him...

P.S: Maybe this entry dun make sense... but this is how I am feeling now...