**Not GotteN OveR YeT**

This morning woke up... All a sudden thought to myself that it seems like I really have gotten over him abit... Though I admit that I do think of him often... but at least I didnt cried for the past 1 week.... However, I cried suddenly while waiting for my company bus today... the moment I saw an old man walking 2 white malteses.. I duno y did I cried at the sight of it... It reminds me of him.... the promises he made to me.... he told me before that he will not leave me no matter wat... I stupidly believed him... My heart hurts just thinking out that.... Only then did I realise.. I still have not gotten over him.. not even a damn bit...

The whole day wasnt good for me... I just felt so moody...Tomorrow, 14th June is his birthday... and its also 1 mth since we broke up... I talked to Saadiah today... I asked her opinion if i should contact him... She gave me a definite "NO!". She told me many stuffs & this 1 sentence that she said caused me to cry uncontrollably... 'Cass, he does not belong to you anymore.... He is not yours anymore'.... I know the fact that he is not mine anymore, however it hurts even more hearing someone telling you this....

Chatted with my fran, R just now... He oso broke off with his gf of a few yrs due to his work commitments etc.... Asked him if he do have feelings for her when he initiated the break-up.... if he still miss her now... He said no... That instance, I felt like I am just like the ger.... My ex does not loves me anymore... does not miss me anymore... Guys can really be that heartless.... No means no... there is no way they will go back.. no matter how you begged them....
Like wat Saddiah said... 'MeN SuckS'.....