**BirthdaY SmS**

Just to recap.. last Tues was his bday... as soon as the clock strike 12...I smsed him 'Happy Birthday'.. However I dun get a reply from him... Telling myself that he might be asleep (though I noe he should be working nite shift that day)... I waited for the next morning for him .. still no reply... (tell myself perhaps he is still sleeping).... however waited for the entire day.... he did not contact me at all till now... Am I expecting too much? Didnt he said that we are still good frans? Is this a lie again? Anyway silly me still refused to believe he is so heartless.. I kept telling myself that maybe afterall he did not receive my sms....

So life still goes on... I am slowly starting to accept the fact that we can never be back together again... But I would still like to thanx him for his encouraging words when I am down at work... Yesterday I had my appraisal, as expected my manager stated that for the past 1/2 yr my performance has been stagnant.. not that its no good... but I need to achieve more... This actually taught me a lesson.. Never ever start ur new job by performing well... in the end will end up like me... from the start, my manager has been expecting alot from me since I have started of well... Anyway she saw improvements in me for the past 2 weeks & asked me to keep it up... So thats the reason I am thanking him...

Have been sneezing quite often recently... Foolish me will always think if he is thinking of me... Just let me carry on day dream bah....