**Am I being Understanding???**

He finally made his decision... or maybe was forced to decide last nite.... I told him to reconsider about it... dun wan him to regret it... But he said he tot about it carefully already... well... okie... I believed him... but now I dun think so... I think he is not ready afterall...

He said no more drinking... no more clubbing for him.. maybe once in a blue moon... he mentioned this got to apply to me oso... though I didnt agree on it... I did tot of not going Zouk with Calista this friday.. since he dun like... but now... why should I listen to him since watever he said is the total opposite of wat he is doing....??? 'kuo bu dui xin'... I dun like it... if u cant do it... dun say it... like tat watever u said to me are craps already... which is truth which is lie... I oso duno...

I am angry with him... but I am oso asking myself if I am not being understanding enough... he is just going out with his frans... I cant control him too tightly... he cant always acc me...I noe all these... but I jus hate it that he dun do the things he said...

Also why cant tell our fran? Ur frans noe... My frans noe... but why not our fran? I dun understand... The only reason I can think of is you still like her....

Should I jus let go now? Maybe he is still 'hao wan'... not ready for a relationship... though I really like him... let go now better than later... I dun wan to hurt myself any further....