Duno how to start this entry... many things happened after 10th Mar...my mood was affected each time I get to noe something... finally i decided to end all these.. to stop contacting him.... no more frans.. cos this is torturing me & probably deceiving myself as well....

In the end, it didnt turn out this way.... We talked very long that day & somehow or rather, we agreed to try out again... to make this relationship work.... Of cos, I am happy but really afraid that history will repeat itself again.... Saadiah told me she saw how I went through this breakup & would not wan to see it happen again.... I oso really hope so.... I noe I should protect myself since I am slowly getting over it but my heart just wouldn't listen.... I noe I might be hurt terribly once again but I still follow my heart.... I am a failure in relationship... I cannot do/think logically when it comes to matters of the heart.... I choose this & I have to be strong to face the consequences...

This time round, I can say I noe him more & oso the problems we had.... I have oso learn to be more understanding & less demanding.... If this time round were to fail again, at least I did try my best to make it work.... Say me stupid or watever, but that is me....