**Shou|deR to cRy On**

Yesterday afternoon Elaine & I were crossing the road.. on our way to lunch... when she suddenly asked me 'Do you mind if your gal frans hold your hand?' ... My ans was 'no' of cos... She then added that the last time when she saw me cry so terribly.. she wanted to hug me but scared I mind... Hearing that, I laughed cos thats what I wanted to do as well... Anyway dun think I will be hugging her liao ah... cos I have not been dropping tears for quite some time... Even if I did, oso late in the nite @ home...

Anyway went to Orchard with Elaine after work that day... Main purpose is to see her toys ah... so we eat eat .. walk walk....see see .... when I got a surprise call from someone.... Its Karen the 'da man ren' .... She jio me go to her colleague's pub near Bugis... I straightaway agreed... anyway so long no go drink liao mah... me oso psycho Elaine to go... the more the merrier... isn't it?

The atmosphere there is very relaxing... music not too loud .... suitable for chilling out with frans.... Ordered Long Island Tea... which when I drank like half of it... my face start to turn red liao ... Yup... I am not gd in drinking... but tat doesnt mean I seh liao leh... I am not tat bad lor... The Gin Lime Elaine had no kick leh.. is more of lime than gin... So she ordered Tequila Shot... she kept saying very shiok after drinking.. tempt me to order oso... btw I normally drink beer 1.. so seldom tried other diff alcohol... Anyway I heard from franz that Lambogini not bad ... so I ordered... not tat nice leh.. personally dun like the taste... but its an experience to be drinking alcohol with blue flame surrounding the glass... Next was Hoegaarden... heard that gers like it very much.. but I find no kick leh... Should have ordered Kilkenny instead... Finally all of us got ourselves a Tequila Shot... I agreed with Elaine... Really shiok... Tot of having one more... but I noe if I do so... i sure flat on the floor 1... Actually at that time Karen & I already seh liao... blurry vision & cant walk steadily.. but I still noe wat I am doing lor... However suddenly out of no where, I started to pour all my sorrows to them.. oso duno y.. & I ended up crying... Karen hugged & consoled me... It really feels better to have a shoulder to cry on... I noe everything is over & i am learning to accept it.... but I just wan to let out my tears.... its a terrible feeling when you want to cry but cant cry out...

After cooling down, I felt very cold & started to shiver.. guess is the alcohol that is taking effect... so went out to have some fresh air & force myself to puke out... felt uncomfortable inside... in the end I managed to puke alittle but ended up crying even more... This time I have Elaine's shoulder to cry on... I told her that this afternoon I still tot that I will not be hugging her & cry anymore... At that moment, I am happy to have 2 great frans by my side... I am not tat lonely afterall.... In fact, I have all my frans that are concern about me & care for me... Ask me out whenever possible so that I wun think so much... I truely appreciated it... :)

To Karen: Help me thanx your 'Da Ge' for the drinks.... Hoepfully we can meet up on Fri ...Go MW... Then u aim for the front... I go for the back ah... **wink wink**