**What will be ur Feelings?**

If someone said

'You are not PRETTY enough for me...!!!'
How will you feel?

If someone said

'You lose 20kg, I come back look for you....'
How will you feel?

I will definitely feel disheartened...demoralised...hurt....so down graded... but does tat person actually noe he is hurting you terribly??? No... He wun noe... & he wouldnt even bother to noe or care about your feelings... He will just talk about his things.... about wanting to noe pretty gers... etc... he just wouldnt care about your feelings when u hear all these... Horrible feeling for you isnt it? Wanted to cry at that point of time but jus couldnt... U cant let him noe u r crying... couldnt let him noe how weak u r.... Mus be strong in front of him no matter wat happen even though its jus an act....

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Suppose to meet Karen today for shopping but I jus have no mood to... these few days I jus wana lock myself at home after work... no mood to do anything... too many things to think about... only time when I stopped thinking about such stuffs is when I am totally engrossed in my work.... I wish I have more to do @ work now.. to keep me occupied.... Well I am definitely handling this upcoming big acc, 3COM.... had a discussion yesterday on the overview of this acc... erm ok ah... doesnt seems tat tough ah... however watever discussed was supposedly under the perfect situation ah... but sure bound to have been hipcupps here & there 1... so might not be that easy afterall... tmr going to see the customer... at least I noe how they look like when I liase with them.... now my job seems to more interesting... go see customers... involve in major accounts... hope it will continue to go up... Ok.. back to today... so I 'dua' Karen initally.... Calista called as well... erm I rejected her... Finally my mum called & asked me to meet her @ Bugis cos she is buying this equipment which is super heavy... want me to go carry for her... So I am being 'forced' to go out afterall... Just nice Uncle Erik called & knowing I in a bad mood... he offered to meet me... so in the end I jio Uncle & Karen down to Bugis to have dinner lor...

Waited for them so long leh... so I & my mum went shopping ard when saw a white Ellesse watch... very nice leh... but I no $$... my mum offered to pay 1st ah... hehe... now got new watch liao... so next target will a nice pair of sunglasses... saw some Gucci ones.... but not tat nice leh... nvm.. will wait & see... We then have dinner @ Siam Kitchen... The food sucks esp the buffet... not nice at all...

Actually duno should I feel happy or sad... some pple say I slim down alot.. some pple say I very fat... Heard both comments on the same day.... This means I mus be a big fat pig last time man... !!!
One of ours contractor asked me wat I have eaten which resulted me in slimming down so much recently...ask me to tell her... She said the contractors are all toking about it... wah.. I didnt noe I so hot topic ah... Seriously nothing lor... Be sad I guess.. haha... My mum's fran oso saw me today....from far she asked my mum if thats me... & said tat I have slimmed down alot since the last time she saw me which is 1 mth ago... got so 'kua zhang' meh? Well the horrible comments of cos I would not wan to elaborate on it.... erm now that I got quite a few exercise machines & stuff... I will continue to work on it.. probably lose 20kg more...? haha..... Franz!!! Be prepared to see Cass the Skeleton if I really achieved that.....