**Addicted 2 Alcohol**

Went to 'Addicted Place' (Karen's colleague's pub) again on thurs with Stace & Karen...Was a last mintue decision.. didnt stayed for long though as all of us have to work the next day.... However Stace & Karen is waiting for me to tell story.. so they kept asking me to drink more.... Haha.. Nope.. no story telling tat nite for me....

No MW for us yesterday as planned due to Stace got to stay back @ work finish her stuff... anyway she dun have the mood oso... since her work is piling up & deadlines nearing... so left me & Karen... kinda weird for both of us to go MW ah... so we ended up 'Addicted Place' again... its quite fun... Karen's colleagues were all there & they were a fun bunch esp her product manager, Gwen... I like her :) .... Karen drank quite alot .. or would I said drank too fast... she kinda seh liao.. I was like her bf... putting my arms ard her shoulder.... haha... pple who saw both of us.. mus be thinking we r lesbians ah... hehe... Karen took her first puff last nite... ya i very bad... let her smoke... but try only mah... i believe she wun be addicted to it 1... Soon later we went out of the pub for a breather... & guess wat... Karen has started today's story telling.... she loves A & knows tat at the end of the day, she will chose A... however she wants her freedom now but is unfair to A... oso she scare to lose A if she goes for her freedom... Dilemma rite? tough choice...

Anyway we drank... chit chatted... play poker cards our nite through... Though Karen 'high' liao.. i still psycho her to drink tequila shot with me.... think I am addicted to it liao... in fact I am addicted to alcohol... die.. i am going to become a 'qui gui' like Elaine liao... Even asked Karen if she wants to go down tonight... haha... desperate for drinks... I oso have my plans for next sat liao leh... will go swimming after work with Stace @ Karen' hse.. later 3 of us shall go for drinking... hehe... now all my plans mus have drinking involved 1...

I had my emotional period last nite as well... Karen was asking y I still cant get over it... Is it cos I still love him? Or is it I am too used to him?... erm Elaine & Ser said that I dun love him anymore.... Used to him? I can still carry on with my life without him... I guessed I am still hanging on to the happy memories we had for 3.5 yrs... I really missed the times when he had loved me so much... showing me so much care & concern... taking care of me when I moved out alone...I feel that I cant find someone else like tat already... u must be thinking I am foolish to think this way... but tats how I am feeling now... its very tiring to start another relationship again... but I oso wanna have the 'xing fu' feeling again... hai~