First Entry of 2008

Finally back after abandoning this blog for almost a year... Have a very strong urge to document this down...It all started off with K......



Have been dreaming of him occasionally... In my dreams, I can feel my heart aching.... & always waking up feeling relieved thats its not reality. I hate the type of feeling & hopefully would never experience it again... So LOST!!!! I have been thinking why is he appearing in my dreams whereby I have not been thinking of him... Pple say probably subconciously I do think of him... Well I have gotten over him after so long, though at times I still do not feel good that he is doing well (as in carrer wise).



On Monday, I dreamt of him again... Hai.... Anyway feeling bored @ work, I went into his email & saw he wrote to that bitch... from it, seems like their relationship is on the rocks.... The bitch replied & for the first time, I agreed with what she said below.....



Can we end this relationship? I don’t feel loved.

I’m tired of hearing you said that you love me and u need me or you reflected. How long can this love last?

You don’t even kiss me anymore except in bed.

I tried my best to wear the best, look the best but still your eyes and focus is not with me. I’m lacking confident. I want to make myself appealing to you but no matter how I try I failed.

After all, I am a girl. I want to feel loved and romance. That’s what a girl truly want and I guess I am not asking much.



Its so truc.. Thats him when a relationship carries on for too long.... Well this msg was written end of last mth & seeing from their friendster, they have 'he hao'already.....
Well, after seeing this msg, it sets me thinking how Calvin has been treating me.... is he behaving the same as K after our 2yr + relationship? Thus I was wary of Calvin's actions these few days & am definite that currently he is still treating me well & I hope this will remain forever.... We are still happily together.. last nite when we were having dinner, well I am thinking about the email btw K & the bitch when Calvin came feeding me his fish.... He was careful to remove the small bones before feeding me.... though this is a small gesture but I can feel that he cares about me.... From that moment, I kept looking at him eating... haha.. he still looks cute to me especially after his hair cut.... so boyish... We are still loving... we do not kiss only in bed... haha.... Ok.. time to all these mushy stuff.... But deep down inside me, I seriously hope we can remain happy forever..... :)