**Getting OveR OnCe Aga|N*

I felt alright when I woke up this morning... in fact I felt a sense of satisfaction for what I wrote in my last entry... I am not really good in describing my feelings esp in writting.. but I managed to so last night... Anyway my mood changes after lunch... oso duno y... but i miss him again... I even went to listen back the past happy conversations we used to have which were recorded on my hp... Brought back many nice memories... For a moment, I thought everything was back to normal... I do really wished so... Can what happened this past 1 mth plus just be a nightmare? I want to wake up tomorrow with everything back to normal... all these are killing me....

Went to suntec with Elaine after work.. as we walked along Citylink... I told her why dun we exit out of Citylink that is leading to Marina Sq... She ignored me though... I kept pestering her but she continue walking straight.. I noe she is doing this for my own good... but I want to see him... maybe he is downstairs smoking... see awhile oso I happy liao...
Nope... In the end we did not walk past his work place afterall...

I was seeing myself at the mirror today & I looked fuckingly ugly... So pale just like a sick person... Hai~ how come eveything end up in this way? Just cos of a bitch, he can become so unreasonable.... I still cant bring myself to believe that he can do all these to me after being together for 3.5yrs ....I cant even be compared to a bitch he has been together for a mth....
Disappointed.... Really disappointed in him...

P.S: Maybe this entry dun make sense... but this is how I am feeling now...

**Infuriated**

He called jus now... he asked if I did wrote anything nasty about the bitch... 'Nope'... I replied... & I meant it... I did not write anything bad about her wat... Apparently duno how her franz got to noe my new blog address & saw what I wrote on my last entry...

His so-called nasty msg I wrote is as below...
"I noe all that he is doing are for the bitch... It hurts so much that someone I have been with for 3.5 yrs is asking me to do something in favour of the bitch... I dun want to say what he had explained to me about he & the bitch... "

Hey.. What do u wan me to call her then??? Ah Lian ah... Or my ex's new love.. izzit??
He said the bitch is now feeling very upset cos she is being pressurised by her franz.. even wanted to break off with him.. & funny part is her 'last' request to him is don' t call & confront me about this ... haha.. wat a joke... U think u r in a drama play ah? Act victim? act 'wei qu'? But still think about other pple...?
If you think u r not a bitch, then u r not ah... what get affected of what an outsider think of u? Somehow I find u pathetic leh.. franz presurising u on what i wrote... erm.. shouldnt good franz be standing by u, supporting u? Or maybe they think u r a bitch afterall?

He kept telling me many things.. main intention is still for her... Well... I really think I am not hurting her..I have no intention of that at all.... anyway that is not the 1st time I call her a bitch in my blog... I have said much terrible things isnt it? Why now then you get so affected over a 'bitch' word? If you think I really want to hurt u, I wun even change my blog address... use ur brain to think... I duno how ur franz or u got to noe my new add... but hey I didnt forced you all to view my blog ok? If u think I am writing rubbish, then y want to come waste your time? U will think I am hurting u now with this new entry... well maybe ... but now i simply dun care at all... U sux man!!!

Below is what the bitch wrote in her blog.... dated 28th Mar.. Btw I am still with him at tat point... What is it suppose to mean? Dun tell me u duno he is attached... U dun see his friendster's status as 'married'? U interested in him but u dun ask more about him? Weird & thick-skinned bitch I mus say...

He said y do I have to put my blog address in my msn (he thinks that this how the bitch's franz noe my new add)... Isnt he being unreasonable.. y cant I?... y cant I let my list of franz view my blog... Dun u think u r being too much!!! Who are u to tell me all these!!!

Like I said we can never be franz anymore... at least not for now.... in fact I hate u at this instance... U r not the guy I used to noe already... you might think u have not changed ... But I do notice... Changes are really so scary... Or maybe I have not seen the heartless side of u until todate....

To the bitch.. stop putting an act ...u love him & u have achieved what you want already .... To him... dun call & ask me to do ridiculous things in favour of her if you or she sees this... This is my blog.. I have my rights to express how I feel... U have of no right to control me...

**MiXeD FeeLinGs**

Today went to a place that I have not been for ages... Jurong Reptile Farm, previously known as Crocodile Farm.... Went there with Ser & her garfield... They want to help me to get over the whole breakup.. so will often ask me out... They dun wan me to stay at home & start to 'hu si luan xiang' ....Well, to Ser & Garfield 'I appreciate all these & Thank You though I maybe kinda lightbulb ah..'

Well the reptile farm is quite small ah... but its interesting though... at least its something diff from the usual activties like shopping, ktv etc.... Finished our tour ard 4pm.. Though of going to Jurong Bird Park as well since its jus opposite.. However we changed our mind after knowing the admission fee is $14.00.. Ex leh... afterall we are not into birds lor... So instead we headed to suntec/marina sq... walk walk.. have dinner at Sakae then went to PartyWorld for our ktv session... Enquire about the price since we do not have coupon... its ard $70.00 for a four hr session... woah.. super bo hua.. so we went to kbox instead.. Though we know that kbox systems cannot be compared to partyworld.... Sang till ard midnite... I was crying while singing... but it makes me feel better after that ... kinda letting all out for me ... Garfield asked me not to cry anymore.. He even joked that my eyes now smaller than Ser's 1 liao... Ya.. I noe.. its horrible now.... But nvm lah... I dun bother for now....

Photos taken today... (P.S: Eyes kinda swollen so very ugly.. but who cares)


~~Say Cheeze~~


~~Nice Waterfall~~


~~Taken while waiting for our lunch~~


~~Getting ready for the Crocodile Show~~


~~So Big!!~~


~~Feeding Time~~


~~Taken @ Sakae.. I like this pic~~


~~Devil Ser & Me~~


~~At KTV.. Taken while waiting for my turn to sing~~

'He' called me last nite while I was watching Initial D... Was lost for words when I saw his no. on my hp at that moment .... Surprised... Didnt he say he dun owe me anything anymore? Well I answered & he said he got something to talk to me.. I immediately noe what is he referring to... He said will call me later that nite since I was watching movie...After the show, I was on my way to the MRT & happen to pass by his office.. Never expected that he was there smoking... To approach or not to approach him? I miss him.. I wan to see him.. but I noe if I go see him...I will feel much worse... In the end, I chose to be miserable... I went up & we talked for quite long... I was putting up a strong front intially...but later I cant control & broke down... He got to get back to work so will continue on the phone later... I know I do said before that should I see him again, i will give him a tight slap rite? Well... I couldnt... I just cant do it... even I was standing rite in front of him...

Later that night we talked for very long on the phone... I noe all that he is doing are for the bitch... It hurts so much that someone I have been with for 3.5 yrs is asking me to do something in favour of the bitch... I dun want to say what he had explained to me about he & the bitch... but we have reached to terms that I will take down the photos of him & her... while she will delete the last entry of her blog ... After which he said he still want to be franz... Well... I duno... I wan but I noe I shouldnt....

Before I went to bed, I was thinking does this means I have 'cheng quan' both of them already?
Anyway whats done is done... I dun have a choice...

Actually I duno how I am feeling now... Its hard to explain... I am still feeling very very very sad... Today sang 'Jie Tuo'.. my favourite song... & thought back when i started to learn this song... he would always correct me on certain parts when i get out of tune... at that time my singing sux... in fact I was always out of tune... It took quite some time before I can sing it well.. Now I really need this song to get over him....Ironic?

Sharon called me today... We have not been contacting much since grad from poly... both busy with our own lives... Nonetheless, she was worried about me after reading my blog... told her all the things that have happened these 2 days... I told her that maybe I was sad over the whole thing cos I am just too used to him & have no feelings for him already... She told me I am wrong & obviously I still have feelings for him... Not to deny... Yes I still have... Only after I lose him did I realise I still love him alot... Unfortunately, everything is tooo late already.... He doesnt feel for me anymore

For now, I will try my best to concentrate in my work.. its a tough thing for me... in fact the impact on me is much bigger than the time we broke off initally... During the nite, I will just let myself cry for the time being... I cant control myself being emotional...
Last of all, I thank all my franz who have been there for me... :)
Thanx alot... Franz Forever....

**TrutH is OuT**

Today finally know what's the real reason behind the breakup... Is because of a bitch... By some means, I noe he is with the bitch... My mind was in a mess when I found out... I called him up & confronted him, though I noe nothing will be changed but I just want to noe the whole truth...
Conversation btw me & him...

Me: Tell me whats the real reason to the breakup....
Him: We not compatible lor...
Me: Are you sure? Dun bluff me anymore...
Him: ya...
Me: Didnt you say cos I dun trust u? Cos you want to concentrate on ur work & studies?
Him: (kept quiet)
Me: You have another ger already rite? Is that bitch.....
Him: ya... But breakup is not because of her... How u noe about this?
Me: Then why u still be Mr Nice Guy to me after the break-up?
Him: Cos I tot we can still be franz...
Me: So all the promises that you wun fall for another ger, etc are crap?
Him: what thing?
Me: Oh... U mus have forgotten... Afterall these are said during honeymoon period ah...
Him: (Kept quiet)
Me: You have been with her before our breakup rite?
Him: No.. its nothing to do with her....
Me: I noe she likes you all along....
Him: So....
Me: So not cos of her? & u can so fast after that fall for her?
Him: I dun need to explain to you.. I dun owe you anything anymore...
Me: (kept quiet.. too shocked to hear what he just said)
Him: how did you noe this? is your friend here? (**he's outside**)
Me: I dun owe you an explanation as well...
Him: Ok then.. Bye
Me: (I hung up the phone)
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I felt devasted.. Despite after the breakup.. many pple tell me that he most likely had another ger.... I still dun believe... to me, he is still a faithful guy... until today... I finally found out his true colors.... I am really blind for the past 3.5 yrs... After me going thro with him his NS period... his degree coz (graduating next yr)... his stressful work.. encouraging him... support him when he needs me... (though I am not a gd gf.. i did tried my very best).... in return he treated me like that... the moment he's getting closer to his goals... he left me for a bitch... What the fuck!!!
He everytime tell me that I dun trust him... Is just excuses.... this type of guy how to trust?

I HATE HIM TO HELL!!!!!!!!!

I noe of this bitch's pressence since 1 yr plus ago... I saw that he & her have been exchanging emails, saying that they are excited to meet each other... At that time when I found out, I confronted him & he told they are just ex-classmates... We did quarrel about this matter... & he promised me not he wun contact her anymore.. even his sis noe about this... She told me this 'Sometimes its best to believe what guys say.. Dun think so much.. ' Okie.. So I let the matter rest... I asked him to delete her off his friendster's list... he did... however this bitch requested to add her again... he rejected his request... but the thick-skinned bitch does not give up...kept requesting... until he told me nvm.. he will just leave the request pending...

Months later, I found that he has been sms-ing the bitch... but I duno what are the contents... He said its just forwarded msges.. & sometimes she sms him.. he feels bad not to reply back... Btw the bitch noes he has a gf already... I oso noe she wrote about him in her blog... from all these stuffs, i noe that she likes him... But I never expect him to like such a thick-skinned bitch...

Elaine said she feel like slapping him if she were to see him... Well, me too... I will do it with all my strength without any regrets... Ser said since he can do this to me, he can do it to this bitch as well... Let this bitch have a heartless guy then... Afterall, they make a compatible pair.... Heartless Bastard & Bloody Bitch....

Thanx to this bitch who helps me see his true colors... afterall its not too late, I am still young...

Ser assured me that I can get a much much better guy than him... Yup.. I hope so...

So.... interested to noe how the bitch & bastard look like? Here it is.. Say me childish or watever... I dun care... I just like it....

**Eventually Called**

Smsed him that night asking if he's busy... Sorry franz.. I just cant control myself... He replied saying he is not feeling well & will call me the next day... Well I didnt dare to have high hopes he will call the next day though.... Afterall I am a nobody to him liao... So I kept myself busy that night by watching vcd.. dun wan to think about if he will call or not...

Surprisingly ... Yup he did call me... I cant explain how I felt when he called... Its just so nice to hear the old familiar voice again... Halfway thro the conversation, he asked why is my voice shaky.. I frankly dun think so leh... & he added that is it cos i too 'xin fen' tallking to him... My first reaction to him was 'siao'.... We talked about my work, about me getting my 'bambam'.... didnt talk much about him though.... just noe his exams is next mth... The conversation lasted for only 10mins as he got to get back to work... He ended with 'Tok to you some other time'.... Wonder when will the "some other time" be? Will he ever contact me??? If Ser & Stace are reading this, they will sure scold me.... Me start daydreaming again....

~ Attempt to act cute~

**He LieD**

I cant control myself from calling him anymore... I have been thinking of him the whole day.... Just now I miss him so much that I can literally feel my heart aching... I missed him alot... I thought that after so long... it should be better... but it turns out to be the opposite....Finally I plucked my courage to call him.... Hearing his voice on the other line melts my heart... At that instance, I felt happy... He told me he is rushing for his classes & will call me after that... so I foolishly waited for his call until now... my phone did not ring.... Think I am the only 1 who will believe what he said...
I fell asleep in the bus jus now... the moment I opened my eyes... I so much wished that I have woken from a nightmare... nothing has happened for the past 1 mth at all... we are still happily together... I really wished.... I cant stop myself from thinking & missing him... What can I do to stop all these misery?

**ThinkinG of HiM**

I put Vincent aeroplane today... Supposed to meet in the morning for breakfast & then catch Mr & Mrs Smith... However I overslept... sms him to tell him that.. then continue to sleep... Hehe.. Finally woke up ard afternoon but by that time already too lazy to go out liao... Vincent Sorry ah...

So I went to continue watching my 100% Senorita... Is not a sad show like Dolphin Bay... However is quite funny & not to add... Wallace Huo is so handsome... Anyway ard evening, Ser sms-ed me... Asking me want meet for dinner... after her continuous persuasion.. I agreed... Went coffee club @ Paragon, after which walk awhile then went home liao... Did not come home empty handed though... Bought Volcano High (korean movie) vcd... I noe its an old show however heard its a good show & oso starring Kwong Sang Woo... Hehe....

~Delicious Yum Yum~

~Now You See it~

~Now You Dun~


~Ya.. I very zi lian 1~


~Devil Ser~


Kept thinking of him today... I oso duno why... I miss the happy times with him... just now I have a very strong urge to call him... want to beg him to come back to me... even though I noe the relationship would not work out even if he agreed... I just want him now ... I need him now....

To all my franz... Dun worry.. I did not call him afterall... I noe I should not call him.. I noe whats right for me... But sometimes, I cant control myself being emotional.... I duno how long more can I restraint myself from calling him... I am trying hard though....

**At The Dophin Bay**

Finally finished the show... Nice & touching... Not to say Wallace Huo is very cool & handsome as well... Never noe of his existance until I caught this drama... hehe... Later will continue on with my vcd marathon... Next show "Qian Jin Bai Fen Bai" or known as 100% Senorita... Of couse starring Wallace Huo as well... Thanx Stace for lending me the drama else got to spend $$ buy liao...

Elaine called just now informing that my customer's cargo did not arrive SG yesterday which I have arranged for delivery to them this morning. They have also standby people to accept the cargo & do uncrating. Customer was very angry, called office & told Elaine that why didnt we monitor for him his shipment since its suppose to arrive SG yesterday afternoon @ 1400 hrs. Now he wants us to pay for the manpower he has called for standby... Well its my fault... Duno what will happen on Monday when Saadiah & my manager knows about it... Sigh.. Have been making alot of stupid/careless mistakes these few days... I also duno what's wrong with me... Nevertheless, I tell myself not to be discouraged by all these.... Learn from my mistakes.. & will do better in future...

P/S: I like the song currently playing.. Meaniningful lyrics....

**BirthdaY SmS**

Just to recap.. last Tues was his bday... as soon as the clock strike 12...I smsed him 'Happy Birthday'.. However I dun get a reply from him... Telling myself that he might be asleep (though I noe he should be working nite shift that day)... I waited for the next morning for him .. still no reply... (tell myself perhaps he is still sleeping).... however waited for the entire day.... he did not contact me at all till now... Am I expecting too much? Didnt he said that we are still good frans? Is this a lie again? Anyway silly me still refused to believe he is so heartless.. I kept telling myself that maybe afterall he did not receive my sms....

So life still goes on... I am slowly starting to accept the fact that we can never be back together again... But I would still like to thanx him for his encouraging words when I am down at work... Yesterday I had my appraisal, as expected my manager stated that for the past 1/2 yr my performance has been stagnant.. not that its no good... but I need to achieve more... This actually taught me a lesson.. Never ever start ur new job by performing well... in the end will end up like me... from the start, my manager has been expecting alot from me since I have started of well... Anyway she saw improvements in me for the past 2 weeks & asked me to keep it up... So thats the reason I am thanking him...

Have been sneezing quite often recently... Foolish me will always think if he is thinking of me... Just let me carry on day dream bah....

**Not GotteN OveR YeT**

This morning woke up... All a sudden thought to myself that it seems like I really have gotten over him abit... Though I admit that I do think of him often... but at least I didnt cried for the past 1 week.... However, I cried suddenly while waiting for my company bus today... the moment I saw an old man walking 2 white malteses.. I duno y did I cried at the sight of it... It reminds me of him.... the promises he made to me.... he told me before that he will not leave me no matter wat... I stupidly believed him... My heart hurts just thinking out that.... Only then did I realise.. I still have not gotten over him.. not even a damn bit...

The whole day wasnt good for me... I just felt so moody...Tomorrow, 14th June is his birthday... and its also 1 mth since we broke up... I talked to Saadiah today... I asked her opinion if i should contact him... She gave me a definite "NO!". She told me many stuffs & this 1 sentence that she said caused me to cry uncontrollably... 'Cass, he does not belong to you anymore.... He is not yours anymore'.... I know the fact that he is not mine anymore, however it hurts even more hearing someone telling you this....

Chatted with my fran, R just now... He oso broke off with his gf of a few yrs due to his work commitments etc.... Asked him if he do have feelings for her when he initiated the break-up.... if he still miss her now... He said no... That instance, I felt like I am just like the ger.... My ex does not loves me anymore... does not miss me anymore... Guys can really be that heartless.... No means no... there is no way they will go back.. no matter how you begged them....
Like wat Saddiah said... 'MeN SuckS'.....

**RelaxinG WeekEnD**

Had to work yesterday.... Though by rite it should be halfday.... I finished work @ 4.30pm... too many stuffs to finish.... Anyway nobody jio me out after that ....until I reached home... by that time I already very tired liao... Stace kept asking me go catch Mr & Mrs Smith... Though really feel like watching... However afraid will end up sleeping throughout the show... so rejected her....
Slept @ 8.30pm... its been long time ago since I slept that early... in fact slept until the next day 11.00 am... more than 12 hrs ah... this shows how fucking tired I am.... Being tired oso a good thing ah.. wun have time to go think of him... but somehow I still remember his bday which in on the 14th... duno if should I wish him happy bday.. will see how when the time comes... wondering if he will remember mine as well...

Spend my whole day watching 'At The Dolphin Bay' or most pple will know it as 'Hai Tuo Wan Lian Ren'.... quite nice.. haven finish though... watch already really feel like 'tan lian ai' but cant find anyone leh....

Sianzzzz... tmr got to work again.... but the comforting thing is it will be a 5 days work week for me.... Nitez..... Going to continue my show.... :)

P/S: If Only I can Turn Back Time.........

**Isn't It Ironic**

Elaine was in a dilemma today... duno who to meet... Supposedly she has arranged to meet this guy fran of hers today after work... She somehow got a crush on him ah.... However her bf called & wanted to meet her as well.... She couldnt decide who to meet... Kept asking me who should she go out with... In the end, I asked her back many questions which left her pondering... Finally she chose to meet her bf... Duno if thats a good decision...Anway I today somehow became her love consultant... and the ironic part is she was my love consultant 1 mth ago... Am I in a position to advice her on relationship matters? After all, I have been an ultimate failure in it.

Things are always easier said than done... Though you should jolly well know what is the right thing you should do, even have other people agreeing on it... however its just so difficult to have it done...

**LazY Me**

Did not go for classes consecutively for 2 days... No mood to go leh.. Or should I just admit I am just plain lazy.. hehe.. anyway went ktv-ing again yesterday with Stace, her twit fran & XY.... Had an enjoyable session esp with Stace's humourous twit fran.. Also realised that her blog was recently featured in the Sunday Times... Its really funny....You people should go read it.....
www.onelittletwit.blogspot.com

Initially planned to go for classes today, however Elaine pyscho me in accompanying her to go Cineleisure to get her toys... & the biggest temptation is she will be treating me to Marche... (she owned me 1 since I went back to work last Sat on her behalf) ....haha...... So I called Stace telling her I will be forsaking today's class again for my delicious Rosti....

We headed to the shop in Cine first... FYI.. Elaine is very very very very (duno how many 'very' I got to emphasize) into toys esp those capsules machine toys.... Anyway we spent roughly an hour in the shop... She spent $265 in total for Chibi Gallery toys....Woah...Can buy so many things with $200+ leh... Anyway if you guys are into Chibi Gallery & wanting to buy any series of Chibi...Can contact me as Elaine has many xtras... Will go her house someday & take pix of her expensive collections.... So look forward to it ya...

[Mr & Mrs Smith] showing already.. I wana watch.... Who willing to acc me???

Got to slpzzzz soon... Else tomorrow sure die... Have been dozing off @ work today... Nitez~~~!!!

P.S: Stace... Don't Worry... You will get your upgrade letter soon....!!!

**Definite|Y OveR**

Met Ser around 5 today @ Marina Square... Supposedly we planned for 'window shopping' but in the end, we spent $$ again... Ser bought a bag & 2 shoes while I got a blouse & skirt... We simply cant resist the attraction of GSS... Ser got a dog handphone accessory & a pair of cute earrings for me from KL...

~~My New Doggy HP Accessory~~

~~Dinner @ NYDC~~

~~I Simply Love SoftToys, esp e NYDC Teddy~~

I finally contacted him today... SMS him 'when will he be able to return me the $$'... He replied he will transfer to me shortly... Ser was glad that he is returning me the $$... however at that point of time I feel that this is the end for both of us... though by right,it had been over 3 weeks ago... but I cant stop feeling this way... I dun have an excuse to contact him anymore cos he dun owe me anything already... We will become just like strangers... I suddenly have the strong urge to contact him (though I mention previously that I will never ever contact him). I finally called & conversation was very short...Despite me calling him, I have nothing to say... In fact, I do have things to say to him... I wan to tell him I miss him so much... I cant stop thinking of him each & everyday... I wan to ask him if he does miss me.... But I cant say all these... I am scared of his reaction & answers... Stupid me in the end still go & sms him.

Me to Him: "Is it really the end for us? Is there any way we will be back together?"
Him to Me: "I think it is. I dont want to lead you on. Pls dont think of the unnecessary."

Me to Him: "Unnecesssary? U think our 3.5yrs relationship as unnecessary?"

Him to Me: 'Not that. I think that you thinking too much is unnecessary.Move on with your life. Dont waste it on me."

Me to Him: "I am unlike you. Can easily move on jus like that after so long."

Him to Me: "Ya. That's y I'm not worth your time. Forget me. You have to for your own sake".

I am utterly disappointed & heartborken. I cant even stop thinking about him... let alone forget him....But I have to...I am left with no other options.... Ser reminded me of the lot... 'There will be someone better ahead.... Jus be patient".... I will... All these just take time... I have to learn to be strong...

**Tiring WeeK**

These few days have been fucking tiring for me... Cos I started going for classes again after 1 mth of slacking...

Tuesday ---> 'Step Workout'
Wednesday --->'New Body'
Friday ---> 'Kickboxing'

As for Thursday, went KTV @ Orchard Partyworld with Stace & her frans (supposely only 2 frans). Cannot everyday workout mah... Oso muz rest & relax... Hehe... Anyway we went with only Stace, her fran (lets call her SM) & me at first. Then came SM's fran, D who (I muz add) sang very well. Subsequently more & more pple joined in... All are SM's collegues & frans... Finally it ended up with 9 of us in the room... Its really enjoyable having so many pple KTV-ing together...

Supposedly I am off today... But was woken up by a phonecall today @ 7am... Its Elaine... She told me her eyes swollen & cannot open...asking if I can go to work instead... I replied sleepingly, 'huh...can dun go or not.. I wan to slp ah....'
But in the end I still got to go lah... Faster bath...dressed up...grab my bag & went to get a cab...without any contact lens & make-up...Heng its Sat morning.. not many pple will see my ugly face...

Worked ard 2pm then met up with Stace go shopping @ Orchard... Its the Great Singapore Sale afterall mah... Got myself a bag & 2 pairs of ear-rings... We then met Stace's fran, XY & 3 other guys for dinner @ Cafe Cartel... While eating, Stace & XY were busily exhanging smses... kpo me go see see wat they are messaging... Stace was asking XY if this guy, J (the most good-looking of all 3) has car? Has gf?.. XY then gave a duno look... & the next moment, we saw her whispering something to 1 of the guys who she is close with... Seeing that, Stace & I looked at each other.. stunned...duno wat to say... She had actually asked the guy if J has a gf... Never expect XY to be so direct.... Its too obvious that we gers are talking about them lor... We ended up laughing so hard until couldnt finish up the food...

After dinner, we walked around until ard 10 plus, decided to go home... Legs aching like hell ah...

Vincent jio go Double O but I am really too tired & oso very broke...Next time maybe...~~~
Ser is back from Genting... will be catching up with her tmr & go gai gai ... more money out again.....Hehe...
Nitez Everyone...

P.S: Its been 3 weeks since we broke up....

**MissinG Him Terribly**

Currently feeling depressed again ... Everything was fine before tat... Both Elaine & Saadiah were asking why am I so happy. Without realising it, I was like 'is it'? Saadiah thot I have gotten back with 'him' or found someone new...At that instance, I was asking myself 'Have I really gotten over him?' Maybe the answer is "YES" which explains my mood....

At this point, I dun think I have gotten over him the least bit... Automatically I will just think of him during the nite... Tears eventually flow just thinking back all the memories... I miss him badly... I wish he will contact me... Despite knowing he won't, foolish me still hoping that he will call or at least sms me eventually... However each day I waited in vain...

When is the day that I can ever stop thinking about him?

When is the day that I can completely get over him?