**Shop Shop Shop**

Went to Taka's basement for lunch yesterday... there is a new hotplate kinda fastfood restaurant.. the food not bad... Elaine agreed as well....will frequent there again...

Jus nice there was a toy fare.. so the super toy-crazy Elaine definitely would not give that a miss... Super packed over there... & only after a mere 30 mins, she spent over $200+ .. For me, I jus look ard... bought a cute pound puppy though... I would rather spend my $$ on clothes, bags, shoes, etc but not toys ah... though they are cute...

Bought a bag & matching wallet from Esprit... Finally I get to change my wallet liao.. Like all my franz noe, the photo in my wallet is stuck with the plastic & if I were to force it out, the photo will be damaged which I do not want.... Even though its over, I still wana keep the photos as keepsake of happy memories... Elaine oso got herself a bag & purse... Haha... We agreed that we have to start bringing sandwiches for lunch till our next pay day liao... but heng I got Esprit card... so still not tat bad .... & there is a secret as well... *wink wink* my close frans should noe wat did I did... I noe I very bad ah... but try for fun only... promise wun do it again liao ....

**My New Wallet**

**Matching Bag... Into purple recently**

Elaine got to go back early... but me dun wan to home leh... The nite is still young mah.. So in the found someone to acc me... tats the 'Thumper Guy'..... Met him for coffee with Elaine... Mus be thinking y Elaine still havent go back rite??? Haha... she is thinking of getting a free ride home since she got so many stuffs to carry... Anyway ard 11+, Karen sms-ed say going to Addicted.. So I asked Thumper Guy if he wants to come along or not ah.... He anything lah... So when poor Elaine heard that, her mood was like 'ok lor... no hope liao... I ownself take bus back lor...' haha.. However the gentleman offered to send her back 1st before we head down to Addicted... So we drove from Orchard to Siglap then to Bugis...

It was quite packed @ Addicted.. But heng Karen asked S to reserve a small table for us 1st.. & since its Sat, there is a ktv as well... Me of cos faster go 'dian ge' ah... but only managed to sing 4 songs in the entire nite.. So Sad.... Drank Martel with Coke... Dun like the taste... so in the end only drank alittle... Also didnt wan to end up like last Thursday... dead drunk... very pai sia 1 leh...

Anyway Karen's mood wasnt good yesterday.... Had a quarrrel with A... As a supporter of A, it was the 1st time I told her to end it... He is really being ridiculous.. too processive... & after so long, he still dun learn his lesson... Karen asked 'hai hui bu hui you ren yao wo?'... Hearing that, Thumper Guy was like 'wah lau'... haha... I did ask him that question before oso... I think thats every ger's worries lor.. Even Elaine asked me the same question yesterday... haha.. I did ask her the exact question couple mths back... Ironic isn't it?

Have been lazing ard today... Slept at 5am last nite but woke up @ 11am... Oso duno y cant slp though tired... Sian... Tmr got to work again.. Really sick of working...Moreover heard some news that there will be changes on the salary & bonus... hear liao even more not willing to work... Maybe its time to change job? Will see how...

**HappY CaSs|e**

Its only been 2 days since I last blogged but there are many things to be updated.... So this will be a long entry.... Here goes.....

Wednesday went KTV with Ser, Garfield & his franz... Overall wasnt a pleasant nite out... I witness the couple quarreling & Ser broke down when he heartlessly left her alone at the carpark... I went up to hug her & told her not to cry... But only to realise I was also crying with her as well... That nite's incident reminded me of the day he broke off with me... It hurts & clearly understand what is the feeling like... Anyway Ser & Garfield are alrite now... I was really worried about her tat nite.... I wan to tell Ser that no matter wat happen, I will be there for you... just like u have been here for me esp during my down times... Franz 4ever ya...

Yesterday met Stace after work for shopping... Yup.. got pay liao... Bought a babydoll dress from TopShop which I wanted to buy it long ago but was too ex.... heng didnt ah... now they are having 50% leh.. so of cos mus grab ah... I simply love that dress... Saw a demin short skirt @ Fox as well... at 1st tried for fun lah... but its really nice lor... even Stace agreed... so ok lor... bought it even though its the last piece & the size quite big... will wear as hipster then... Spend about 100+ just for the shopping & dinner... got to stop liao.. ar bo I will be broke before the next pay day...
Finally, we went Addicted to meet Karen... hoping to be able to see Jeremy... haha... Sadly he did not came down last nite... Somehow Karen's fran (lets call him S) managed to get Jeremy num... He even called Jeremy to check if he is coming down... haha... of cos i oso got sms him ah... nothing much on the contents though.... actually really wanted to ask how old he is.. but seems kinda weird leh.. anyway he will sms me if he were to drop by Addicted... hmm.... will see how lah... S oso volunteer to call Karen if he saw Jeremy.. haha....
Drank 4 tequila shots & half mug of Kilkenny before I start my story-telling for that nite... Guess Karen & Stace have been anticipating for that moment.... Didnt drank much yesterday compared to the other nites... However I was real drunk.... Dun understand y oso... Maybe too tired ah.. afterall had slept for only 3-4 hrs for the last two days... Puke alittle before Karen & Stace send me home... & before I took the lift to my hse, managed to puke more... Felt better after that but head really damn pain ah... Mummy wasnt happy (or maybe heart broken) to see me in this state... she complained that I recently always come home drunk & its all cos of a f**king asshole... Maybe initially I really did cos of him go drinking... but not now... I am just addicted to drinking at the moment... Like I mentioned before, perhaps someone out there will be able to change my current lifestyle....?

Am on leave today... this oso explains why I can afford to be drunk last nite.... However got to wake up early as the contractors are coming to change the riverts for the windows... In the end, nothing was done.... cos found out that they have to change this thing at the corner of each window panel.. which the 'thing' cost $35 each.. so imagine 1 panel got 4 of such 'thing' meaning a panel itself will cost $140.. total there are 9 panels to change leh... it will be like 1260 bucks exlcuding the riverts & etc... day-light robbery lor... Finally we decided to change the whole window... afterall its cheaper & not to forget, its a new 1 lor... Guess got to take leave again to have this done & also Mummy wan to install split aircon... haha... I volunteer to find lobang for that... & the person will be Garfield... Hopefully he can quote me cheap cheap ah....

After 2 mths, I finally opened up to Mummy... I told her about everything about my failed relationship... Not tat she doesnt know that I am not with him anymore... just that my mood hasnt been good & didnt tok much to her... She told me that she did called him aft 'my lens got stucked' incident ... This 1 i know... he did tell me before oso.... Surprising part is he told Mummy that I am very spendthrift & always ask $$ from him whenever I am broke... I was like so shocked to hear that lor... I admit that I am spendthrift.. & ya I am always broke... & yes I always ask him for $$... but the thing is the $$ which I am asking from him is my $$ leh...this $$ he has owed me since like almost 1 yr ago.... is it wrong to ask a person to return back YOUR $$??? I didnt ask him to return me the whole sum straightaway leh... jus like $50-$100 a mth? Afterall he is earning more than me wat... but he always say he no $$.... is he himself a spendthrift??? I duno oso cos when question him why his $$ always mysteriously disappeared... He say he duno oso... Maybe he had been showering gifts for other ger??? Haha.. most likely.. I find I have been really so stupid tat time leh... remember a few occasions when he no $$ come borrow from me.... I that time oso barely have enough... but knowing that he is really broke... I went to borrow from my fran... saying that I need it... am i blinded by him or wat? & after all these, he told my Mummy such rubbish.... He oso told her that he has been asking me to continue my studies... yup.. this is true... he did but when I told him I cant.... I dun have the $$... he will tell me... can 1 ah... jus dun club too much lor... But I know myself I cant do it with my current pay... Anyway he told Mummy that he has been encouraging me to study & he wouldn't mind chipping in part of my sch fees.... hahahaha... i hear liao really wanna laf... First of all, he never mention that to me... & where the hell does he get the $$.... he cant even return my $$ ... let alone the school fees... who is he trying to kid???? Last but not least, he promised Mummy that there is no third party involved in our relationship.. He jus wan to concentrate on his studies & family... Wat the fuck... Dun tell me rubbish... He jolly knows clearly wat is the current situation now...Why does he still wana portrait himself as Mr Nice Guy? He is just a bloody jerk... He can do this to me, he oso can to do it to the bitch as well...

After talking to Mummy, I felt much better.... relieved... In fact, I am happy for not having a jerk with me anymore... A jerk who tell tales to Mummy... Btw, I am going to further my studies... Ya.. this explains my title for this entry... Was really happy that Mummy will sponsor my studies... She actually have this intention quite long liao but she saw that my mood hasn't been good so didnt want to discuss with me oso....Thought that I will not study again since that time she suddenly dun wan to sponsor me... Most likely will be going to SIM open U... taking BSc in Finance.... I know its kinda 'off' my IT diploma but I am not keen in IT leh... I basically hate networking which is the most popular in the market ... Just imagine going back to study excites me... Though it will be very stressful to work & study... its still based on my self-discipline lor... Really looking forward to it... Hehe... Also recently there has been this person who has been showing alot of concern for me... i treat him like my 'da ge ge'... sometimes I really hope to have siblings... someone that I can turn to as & when I am feeling down... anyway we have this agreement... promise that i will reduce my drinking whereby he will cut down on his smoking... lets see if we can do it ya... :)

**You SucKs BiG TiMe!!!**

• You are so fuck up
• You are a LiaR
• You are a Jerk
• You are a bloody Ass-hole
• You are so fake

BASICALLY YOU ARE A FUCKING BASTARD!!!!

**Thumper or Devils**

Wanted to blog yesterday.. However too sleepy... literally slept the whole Sunday away...

Here's what happened on Sat.. Basically we were all dolling ourselves at Karen's house cos before that we were swimming at her place... It was a fun experience though.. giving each other opinions... sharing make-ups... photo-taking them make-up... haha...

We initially thought of going Thumper... moreover there is someone who is able to sign us in... However when asked him what time will he be there.... He said 10+.... Dun you think it sounds vague? 10+ can means 10.01pm to 10.59pm... So we have to wait like 1 hr? Just nice Ray sms-ed me if wana join he & his fran to Devils...His fran oso can sign us in... Since the Thumper guy not really willing to sign us in, so we decided to go Devils.. After msg him tat we going else where, he straighaway called & say he will be there at 10.30pm.. Thinking he has not seen the msg yet, i told him too late ah.. We decided to go else where... He replied, 'Tats y I called you & tell you I will be there at 10.30 pm...' Weird? Anyway we decided to go Thumper for awhile... Afterall heard alot about that place & only meeting Ray at 11.30pm...

Basically Thumper is like Balaclava.. the crowd are mostly late twenties... with live band... more for chilling out.. chit chatting wif franz... or perhaps we were there at the wrong time.. Understand from Thumper guy tat it will be more happening later part of the nite... Maybe.. But overall three of us don't really like the place... Guys over there are too old... haha...

So we only stayed there for about half an hr before we headed to Devils... Met up with Ray & his fran, Ed... Then headed in when the bouncer told Ed that we have to pay for the cover charge etc... Then Ed said 'I am E****'s brother'.. Hearing that, the bouncer was like ,'Oh!! okok... ' ya.. jus 1 sentence & we got in for free... haha... I & Stace were saying next time we will tell the bouncer we are E****'s sister ah..... Anyway I still prefer the crowd & music at Devils than Thumper... Too bad, the cute guy from the live band is not there tat day... Ray told me he will only be @ Devils on Sunday... Hai~.. Wasted.. haha.. Anyway we drank & dance for a couple of hours before we left for our supper... Stace at first wasnt quite willing to go... cos scare fat... all of us oso scare fat mah.. but dun care lah.. eat already then 'da suan' lah....haha...We had tim sum @ Geylang...quite nice... Wouldn't mind going there again... hehe... Reached home ard 4am.. This explained why I can sleep the whole of next day... was a super tiring week....

Vincent said that I started drinking cos of him... I thought about it... Maybe bah? He kinda plays a part in it... If I am still with him, in the first place I wun even be staying out late almost every nite...I will wait for him to call me... then go slp... jus a simple life... But this does not means I am drinking my sorrows away... Maybe initially I am...however now I am just purely addicted to it... I noe its no good to drink too much & my belly is getting bigger... but its just for now only.... Maybe someone out there is able to change my current lifestyle....

P.S: Thanx Ray & Ed for the drinks & supper... will buy you drinks on Thurs if you guys can make it to Addicted....

**Karen putting on her mascara while Stace 'vaining'**


**Nice Grad pic.. isn't it? I like it**

**Stace & Karen all dressed up**

**Me & Stace 'zi lian'**

**Another 1**

**Me & Karen**

**I like this pic.... Sweet rite?**

**Drooling....**

As usual, have been drinking for the last 3 days... even managed to psycho Vincent to come all the way down fr Tiong Bahru to my place just for a drink on Tuesday... haha... ya.. I very bad hor... but he dun mind mah... Btw he won $10k plus 2 wks ago from 4D.. super heng rite...? 1st prize somemore leh... He did told me before if he strike lottery.. he will buy me 1 of the things from my wishlist... but now he back out from his words... LIAR!!!! I WAN MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!! :P

Karen sms-ed me yesterday... saying she opened a bottle of tequila previous nite @ Addicted.. asking me if I am interested... Hahahaa... Of cos I am & she noes it... Karen, Stace & I headed straight to Addicted after our dinner... After settling down, we somehow noticed from far this cute guy playing pool... After awhile we found him queuing for the toilet... Such a good chance cannot be wasted ah.. so Karen & I went up to him, telling him that Stace wanted to know him & whether he wants to join us for a drink... I dun think Stace mind being the victim to know a cutie rite??? hehe... Anyway in the end he bought us 3 mugs of Kilkenny... we chatted awhile & found out he is working for Standard Chartered under collections... but he said he just came out from army... erm we were wondering if he is younger than us... in any case, he is so much cuter when I see him close up... has dimple & speaks welll.... got the charisma & such a gentleman to buy us drinks... haha.. i am going ga-ga over him... however before we noe it, he bid us goodbye... so sad... didnt got his number leh.. However we found out that he is actually a regular at Addicted & he sings really well ... so we will be frequenting this place even more... :p

Karen is @ Addicted now... & she saw Jeremy... hai~... if only I went down today.. but cannot lah.. super tired. tmr got to work leh & clubbing at nite.. Karen just sms-ed me if wan to get Jeremy's num.... Haha... I replied 'ok.. oso ask about his age ya....' scarely he younger than us... haha... anyway this type of guys... only can look at... but not safe to have as bf...

Anyway waiting for Thurs...haha.. then might be able to see the dimple guy.... :)

**Currently Seh-ing**

I am seh now... drunk quite alot today... but we met a cute guy called Jeremy... really very cute with dimple leh... haha... will update more again tomorrow..... *drooling**

**Hangover**

Head aching like hell this morning... so ya... on MC today... & Elaine is on urgent leave until end of this week... anyway poor Saadiah got to do the work for us today... Sigh... will be a busy week for me... Sick of always having to backing-up her but on the other hand, I understand her current situation oso...

Yesterday met Raymond & suggested going to the beach cos my mood wasnt tat good...we ended up @ East Coast... one of the beach pub... nice & relaxing place.. its jus facing the beach & feels really great when the sea breeze hit on ur face... had a mug of beer... hehe... after awhile my eyes turn red liao... machiam crying... Hang ard there for a couple of hrs or so before we left... Btw the Indian guy who served us dressed very retro leh.. haha.. weird dress code in such a place...

We headed to MW after that... ordered a jug of beer.. played 5-10 & initially i kept losing...drank until my whole face like tomato... however later i roughly noe his tactics liao.. hehe.. overall drank quite alot... cos Raymond cant drink much oso since he got to drive... I kept wanting to pee ah...but enjoy the last part when i seh.. felt more relaxed...however still noe wat i doing ah... other than walking zig zag...

Left MW ard 2 plus.. think I concussed the moment I was in the car.... even need him to send me rite to my door step... Felt bad since next day he got to work... Anyway we were chatting in msn this morning & he told me he very tired... :( make me feel even worse....

Chatting with Karen now.. she oso MC ah.. haha.. if like that, should have asked her to join us yesterday... anyway both of us are excited about sat... trying to ask as many pple as possible to join us...our aim in life currently is 'JUS HAVE FUN!!!'.... rite ger? hehe....

Going to meet Ser & Garfield later to go temple bai bai... yup.. praying for my prince charming to appear...hehe...

**waiting.....**

A ger has been waiting for the guy to contact her... Afterall he did said he will... its been weeks & she is still waiting foolishly every nite for the call... Maybe its jus a lie afterall.....

**Addicted 2 Alcohol**

Went to 'Addicted Place' (Karen's colleague's pub) again on thurs with Stace & Karen...Was a last mintue decision.. didnt stayed for long though as all of us have to work the next day.... However Stace & Karen is waiting for me to tell story.. so they kept asking me to drink more.... Haha.. Nope.. no story telling tat nite for me....

No MW for us yesterday as planned due to Stace got to stay back @ work finish her stuff... anyway she dun have the mood oso... since her work is piling up & deadlines nearing... so left me & Karen... kinda weird for both of us to go MW ah... so we ended up 'Addicted Place' again... its quite fun... Karen's colleagues were all there & they were a fun bunch esp her product manager, Gwen... I like her :) .... Karen drank quite alot .. or would I said drank too fast... she kinda seh liao.. I was like her bf... putting my arms ard her shoulder.... haha... pple who saw both of us.. mus be thinking we r lesbians ah... hehe... Karen took her first puff last nite... ya i very bad... let her smoke... but try only mah... i believe she wun be addicted to it 1... Soon later we went out of the pub for a breather... & guess wat... Karen has started today's story telling.... she loves A & knows tat at the end of the day, she will chose A... however she wants her freedom now but is unfair to A... oso she scare to lose A if she goes for her freedom... Dilemma rite? tough choice...

Anyway we drank... chit chatted... play poker cards our nite through... Though Karen 'high' liao.. i still psycho her to drink tequila shot with me.... think I am addicted to it liao... in fact I am addicted to alcohol... die.. i am going to become a 'qui gui' like Elaine liao... Even asked Karen if she wants to go down tonight... haha... desperate for drinks... I oso have my plans for next sat liao leh... will go swimming after work with Stace @ Karen' hse.. later 3 of us shall go for drinking... hehe... now all my plans mus have drinking involved 1...

I had my emotional period last nite as well... Karen was asking y I still cant get over it... Is it cos I still love him? Or is it I am too used to him?... erm Elaine & Ser said that I dun love him anymore.... Used to him? I can still carry on with my life without him... I guessed I am still hanging on to the happy memories we had for 3.5 yrs... I really missed the times when he had loved me so much... showing me so much care & concern... taking care of me when I moved out alone...I feel that I cant find someone else like tat already... u must be thinking I am foolish to think this way... but tats how I am feeling now... its very tiring to start another relationship again... but I oso wanna have the 'xing fu' feeling again... hai~

**Down Period**

Many people said I have lost weight... Yup.. I am happy & am continuing to achieve that...An incident happened yesterday when I went to accounts dept cos need to raise an urgent cheque... So when I was standing there waiting for the cheque to be issued.. one of the aunties said,'wah.. u lost alot of weight leh... on diet ah?? Everyday eat salad izzit???' I just smiled & shook my head when she mention on the salad thing... but she like didnt even bother about my reply.. & continue to tell another auntie...'She slim down alot hor... prettier & prettier liao leh... mus be everyday eat salad...' Erm.. jus becos u saw me having salad for lunch on one occasion doesnt mean I everyday oso eat leh... Anyway I find the whole thing funny leh... the auntie dun even listen wat I have to say even though she bother to ask me... maybe she is not asking at all in the 1st place.. she assume can liao....

Today my colleague, Auntie Pei Pei (tats wat Elaine & I call her) tell me I look so 'qiao cui' & eyes swollen... will meh? she said last time Elaine & I always so happy... joke.. laugh loudly... but now both of us always look so depressed, dun smile, face black black... She see liao oso sad... Ya I agree.. We have been very down recently... First Elaine has her relationship problem... followed by my break-up... now her mother problem... this few mths have been a down period for us... Its like haven even get over 1 matter.. comes another... Come to think of it.. i miss those happy times... when there is only laughter.. no worries... no tears... I wished I can go back to the old me.. the cheerful & heckcare Cass.... but everything is different already....

Everyone has been telling me to just let go of it... I noe I mus.. I clearly noe wat is the right thing i should do.. however my emotions overwrited it... was emailing sharon during work.. she said' dun think about it liao.. let go.. take it that someone is wearing your old shoes... & its time for you to find a new pair which is better... more suitable... afterall the old 1 is worn out already...' Is it too bad to describe him that way? Dun think he mind anyway... But actually I kinda like & agree wat Sharon said... thats y I still keeping that email... Will read it as & when I am too emotional again...

My Aust trip more or less confirm liao... will be going for 8 days to Gold Coast & Melbourne... hopefully there will be 10 pax by that time to go.. else will be 2 of us.. which means will miss out some of the places... looking forward to it...

Yeah~~!!! Fri going MW ... Sooooo long no go clubbing liao... :)

**Regretted**

Didnt tot of blogging tonite... however after wat happened just now... I feel like do some scribbling here... Was having dinner with Stace just now... talked about stuffs which left me thinking about the past... she said last time I & him were still so close together when I was still in DBS... still remember the time all of us including Karen went to eat 'chong qing'... its seems like a couple of mths back only... how time flies... Anyway all these happy memories resulted me in doing something just now which I truly regretted... Y cant I just control myself..? all these while hasn't it been fine... ??? Y do I wan to make myself feel this way again? Terrible feeling but maybe thats wat I want afterall.....

**Taiwan Or Australia??**

Will be going for holiday in Sept... Its time for me to take a break after sooo much things have happened... Still deciding Taiwan or Aust... Went a few agencies jus now... But still couldnt decide... I wana go Taiwan shop & eat... & I oso wana go Aust sightseeing... actually I am more keen in Aust but I will have no more leave until next yr if were to go... planning for a 10 days tour there...
Hai~.... Hope get this settle fast.. It can get quite tiring even before going for the holiday...

~~My Collection Today~~

**Shou|deR to cRy On**

Yesterday afternoon Elaine & I were crossing the road.. on our way to lunch... when she suddenly asked me 'Do you mind if your gal frans hold your hand?' ... My ans was 'no' of cos... She then added that the last time when she saw me cry so terribly.. she wanted to hug me but scared I mind... Hearing that, I laughed cos thats what I wanted to do as well... Anyway dun think I will be hugging her liao ah... cos I have not been dropping tears for quite some time... Even if I did, oso late in the nite @ home...

Anyway went to Orchard with Elaine after work that day... Main purpose is to see her toys ah... so we eat eat .. walk walk....see see .... when I got a surprise call from someone.... Its Karen the 'da man ren' .... She jio me go to her colleague's pub near Bugis... I straightaway agreed... anyway so long no go drink liao mah... me oso psycho Elaine to go... the more the merrier... isn't it?

The atmosphere there is very relaxing... music not too loud .... suitable for chilling out with frans.... Ordered Long Island Tea... which when I drank like half of it... my face start to turn red liao ... Yup... I am not gd in drinking... but tat doesnt mean I seh liao leh... I am not tat bad lor... The Gin Lime Elaine had no kick leh.. is more of lime than gin... So she ordered Tequila Shot... she kept saying very shiok after drinking.. tempt me to order oso... btw I normally drink beer 1.. so seldom tried other diff alcohol... Anyway I heard from franz that Lambogini not bad ... so I ordered... not tat nice leh.. personally dun like the taste... but its an experience to be drinking alcohol with blue flame surrounding the glass... Next was Hoegaarden... heard that gers like it very much.. but I find no kick leh... Should have ordered Kilkenny instead... Finally all of us got ourselves a Tequila Shot... I agreed with Elaine... Really shiok... Tot of having one more... but I noe if I do so... i sure flat on the floor 1... Actually at that time Karen & I already seh liao... blurry vision & cant walk steadily.. but I still noe wat I am doing lor... However suddenly out of no where, I started to pour all my sorrows to them.. oso duno y.. & I ended up crying... Karen hugged & consoled me... It really feels better to have a shoulder to cry on... I noe everything is over & i am learning to accept it.... but I just wan to let out my tears.... its a terrible feeling when you want to cry but cant cry out...

After cooling down, I felt very cold & started to shiver.. guess is the alcohol that is taking effect... so went out to have some fresh air & force myself to puke out... felt uncomfortable inside... in the end I managed to puke alittle but ended up crying even more... This time I have Elaine's shoulder to cry on... I told her that this afternoon I still tot that I will not be hugging her & cry anymore... At that moment, I am happy to have 2 great frans by my side... I am not tat lonely afterall.... In fact, I have all my frans that are concern about me & care for me... Ask me out whenever possible so that I wun think so much... I truely appreciated it... :)

To Karen: Help me thanx your 'Da Ge' for the drinks.... Hoepfully we can meet up on Fri ...Go MW... Then u aim for the front... I go for the back ah... **wink wink**

**TruE LoVe ExistS?**

Tears finally flowed down my cheeks today... Was having dinner & chilling out with Stace just now when we talked about one of her guy fran who has been in a relationship for 3-4 yrs... As the relationship seems kinda stagnant, he tot of doing something diff from the usual like playing tennis etc to spice up their relationship... However his ger rejected him by giving lame excuses... This resulted him in losing faith in the whole matter & even said if he were to meet someone more suitable now, he will go for it... Hearing this makes me angry& sad... How can the guy do such thing after sooo long a relationship? Long relationship really doesnt last? Even if it lasts, the feelings will not be the same again? I have been hearing too many of such things recently & I am starting to lose faith... Of cos, the ger plays a part in this as well... she doesnt seems to make any effort to make it work... cant entirely blame the guy... afterall he did tried...

This leads me thinking of Kenneth... He did not even tried to savage our past long relationship... Maybe he did initially however he did not tried hard enough... in fact he gave up after he changed to a diff job... Does change of work environment plays a factor in relationship? I duno... But seems like guys do change when they switch jobs... Does changing job = changing gf? I still cant bring myself to accept the fact that he betrayed me... I never tot he is such a person...
I miss the old Kenneth... Was at the airport just now & tot back the times when I see him off to Aust... I was crying badly then... & how excited, happy were both of us when I fetched him at the airport... I missed the old times... I wished I could turn back time... Really wished... There is just too many memories of him everywhere....

**YuM YuM**

Went Partyworld @ Shenton Way with Sharon & Meiting... Enjoyed myself very much... Surprisingly I did not cry... other than some tears dwelling my eyes while singing 'An Jing'... Taken many photos though... in fact regretted not bringing out my extra memory card which he bought for me... This is also one of the reasons why I dun wan to change my camera.. I still wan to use the things he bought for me... This is the best I can do to have him close to me again... Say I am foolish or watever... but thats what I wan now...

Anyway I noticed that there is a korean restaurant beside Partyworld which the decor is machiam korean style ah... So we ended up having our dinner there... Though the food isn't cheap, but serving was big & not to mention, the food is simply delicious... Think we ordered too many dishes, until we ended up asking each other 'qian pian wen da ti' or should I said Sharon & Meiting are the ones asking... & I am the one who is kena forced to finish the food everytime I failed to guess the correct ans... My mind is just too logical to think of such answers ah... Hehe...
The bill came up to almost $80 bucks but its quite an experience ah... Soooo long never eat until so full liao... Think the weight I lost during this period is gained back after last nite's dinner...

~~Meiting & Sharon~~

~~Me & Meiting~~


~~Sharon & Me~~

~~Sweetie CheRie~~

~~Taken by the lousy waiter~~

~~Meiting seems drunk~~

~~Me, Meiting & Sharon~~


~~While waiting for our food~~

~~Making ourselves comfortable~~

~~Isn't it Yummy~~

~~I am enjoying it~~

~~So are Sharon & Meiting~~

~~Taken after our meal... Too full & tired to smile liao~~

Dreamt of him last night again... In fact this time round, the other party appeared in my dream as well... I actually cant remember the feeling I had when I saw them together in my dreams... but when I woke up & picture the situation... I thinkI will feel lost... sad & jealous but dun wan to show it... want to hug him tightly but impossible... I jus have to be strong & happy in front of them... Now I noe I couldnt but hoped if I happen to saw them eventually... I will be the strong & happy ger again...

**Changi Village**

Spent today @ CV... in fact I am always there for lunch during weekdays... Which makes today diff... cos I am not working yet I am there... Yup.. Like I said previously, I am going to Changi Village Hotel (previously known as Le Meridien Changi) for Delwan's farewell... When we checked into the room.... were surprised that their balcony is a closed-up kind... like a tank ah... overall not bad...I would recommend franz to stay this hotel.. Its cosy & the environment is very diff from the usual hotels u would stay... Though CV is 'wu lu' but this is where u can somehow enjoy the nice scenaries... the quiet peace... ideal for couple... not to mention the bathroom can be see through from the room... so isnt it just too perfect for couples??? Hehe...

Me & Stace's main intention is to go to the pool for sun-tanning.. However by the time we get everything settled.. its already ard 4 plus... we quickly hurried to the pool & by that time dark clouds were covering the sun... Sigh~... No sun tanning today for us...Anyway we still soak in the pool for awhile... Nice view from the top...
Regretted never take more photos.. I love the view at the pool most..hopefully next time can go again & surely will take pics until siao...


Called Karen today & was surprised to hear that she got a HR post in CV Hotel... I & Stace were very excited to hear that... Imagine last time three of us worked in DBS together... & now we are working so near each other... Can meet more often liao.. esp with Karen.... Once she start work there... we sure go find her for lunch/dinner... In fact today I look around the restaurants in CV hotel... erm nice ambience I would say.. looking forward to it... Hehe...


~~Nice View from the Balcony~~


~~'Tank' Balcony with all the food~~


~~Taken from the 'Tank' Balcony. Abit like the Gallery Hotel~~


~~Stace & Me~~


~~Me 'Zi Lian' @ the balcony~~


~~Sweetie CaSsie~~

Btw below is the view from the rooftop of my work place... Yes... Mine is just opp Stace's office... Dun envy me ah... hehe... Starting see those planes very excited ah.. but now sian liao...
Will post more pics of my office next time...

**No WorK 4 Me Th|s SaT**

yup.. i am glad that I dun need to go work tomorrow.... simply cos I am really tired... but that doesnt mean Elaine is coming to work... Well... my supervisor & manger noe that i not happy.. Imagine 2 weeks ago.. such things happen again & my Saturdays are always burnt... so my new supervisor, Andrew will be coming in tomorrow... Hehe... me finally can slp slightly late liao...

I would say I didnt think much of him today.... basically have been very busy the whole day & after which I am just too tired to think of anything already.. In fact at this instance, i kinda going to doze off liao...

Last week went to the Marina Promenade for awhile before catching Initial D... loves going there when I am down.... didnt regretted going there that day cos I get to take many nice photos... Apparently there was a National Day rehearsal & really machiam I am at the Parade itself...

**S|gh**

Stace came back from Tokyo liao... & brought back a piece of good news... that is her bf proposed to her... everyone now seems to be getting married at young age... is it a trend now to get married young? Erm I duno leh.. seeing this makes me scare... I now dun even have a bf... let alone toking about getting married.... will I be left on the shelf? Actually I quite contradicting ah.... On this hand scare nobody wans... but the other hand if I were to really find my Mr Right, will it last? My failed relationship with Kenneth makes me lose faith ... Nowadays, not many relationships/marriages do work out .. Its really scary....

Elaine kena hand,foot, mouth disease... 2 days MC... hai~ Cant go for my half-day leave tomorrow liao... & I sat got to back-up her... My plans kinda ruined... Tot of tomorrow half day go home & rest, watch vcd.. then sat clean hse , after which go Delwan's farewell party @ Changi Village Hotel... Duno her quite well but she is really very funny... Enjoy the times when I am chilling out with her & Stace... Will miss her jokes & craps for the next 2 mths... Anyway intend to go swimming cum sun-tanning there ah.. Though can still make it even aft work, however think will be dead tired by the time I reached there... So Sunday is my only rest day but late afternoon going for ktv session with Sharon & Meiting... Yaya... Will sure to cry.. but its a way to make relieve myself... It feels better to cry it all out... Hence it will be quite a busy weekend for me ahead...

Updated Stace of all the happenings in my life since she left for Tokyo... She felt angry with all the things he had done... in fact not only she, all my franz are angry with him.. the things he did esp controlling watever I wan to blog... where i post my blog address etc... he is just totally blinded by her to realise what he is doing... Well... I come to realise that maybe I do not love him anymore... its just too used to him already... Why I feel sad then? Cos he betrayed me & hurted me terribly... Such a guy I dun think I wan to keep it with me... Like Stace & Ser said, always think of the lot that I 'qiu".... Someone better will be out there waiting for me :)

~~I want to be happy again~~