**Christmas..a period of Loneliness**
Okie... here is an update of wat have happened for the past week......... Basically clubbed for 4 nites.... :P
Wednesday supposedly going to MOS w Karen.. however so many pple... ended up at MW... & it turned out that half of it has turned to 'ming ge chiang ting'... OMG... cannot believe it & its so boring... after that got frans at MOS q-ing.. so I alone went over to join them... MOS is the best... clubbed till 4am.. went home.. slept for 1 hr & headed for work... zombie the next day man...
Thurday went dinner w Saadiah & Pat... supposedly is purely dinner ah.. but ended up drinking oso... the more I drink.. the more wana slp.. haha... slept for 6 hrs tat nite... better than 1 hr ah.. haha..
Friday went MOS at 9 plus.. to avoid the long q... yes.. its super early... we sit there until sian.. though I dun really feel like leaving.. but majority wins.. so we headed to Thumper.. saw my 'chu lian qin ren'.... haha.. stayed there till 4am... next day got to work somemore... i really become super woman already...
Sat came home & took a nap after work... then headed to Thumper again.. cover charge $50 per head leh.. ex... in the end we opened 1 chivas..waived 3 head count.. so got to pay another cover... anyway i need not pay anything that nite... :p xmas celebration over there was so so only... we shared table with a group of guys... then think Pat high already.. went to cheers w them.. haha.. later one of them came over asking am i Ok.. & after that played 5-10.... got 1 cute guy in the group...exchanged numbers... :p stayed ard 3 plus...
Sunday intend to meet Karen for dinner... chit chat.. however received SMS from dbl O about free entry tat nite.. so yup.. ended up at dbl O with frans... was mostly drinking than dancing since the drinks there are dirt cheap... unhappy things happen at there that nite... think I gotta ban going those places w 'O' liao... all sad incidents happen at dbl O, O Bar, MOS....
Today woke up... feeling miserable... started to cry... its been quite long that I cried so terribly... I really HATE myself at times... obviously noe nothing will comes out of it... even if really 1 day got chance to be back together, I clearly noes I wun wan... but WHY am I still feeling this way??? Why do I still wana HANG on to it??? Have I gotten over yet or not??? My sober mind tells me yes... almost... but when I am drunk, it says otherwise... some pple said u express ur true feelings when u r drunk.. some said no... u r jus uttering plain rubbish... so wat the HELL is it? Will someone tell me exactly wat am I thinking / feeling?