To continue from my last entry... The nite when I went down Boat Quay with Uncle Erik to find him.... well he called me later @ 3am.. This time round I am not surprised but happy tat he called.. somehow I have expected he to call but I dun wan to have high hopes on it as well... Afterall who am I to him...
Anyway we chatted quite a far bit.. he told me he damn 'seh' after his 2nd round @ Eastside... was lucky that he managed to drive home safely... so I asked him y did he call me then since he is 'seh' & got to work the next day... He replied he wan to make sure I am home safely... Isn't he sweet? Mainly we talked about his past relationship... he told me not say he dun wan me to be with me but he had lost hope in everyone.. & that is EVERYONE... well disappointed was how I felt... but I understand... He has too many problems now... in fact the timing is totally wrong.. if only his last relationship isn't tat recent... if only his mum isn't back.. if only he had not the accident 2 weeks back... Maybe the current situation will not be like tat.... I told him I duno should I feel happy or sad that he called... cos he has rejected me.. but he kept saying he did not reject me... I duno wat is he thinking.... just leading me on??? Before ending the call I asked if he still wana ever hear from me again... He replied 'fei hua'... I asked y is it 'fei hua'.... He said then wat for he called me in the 1st place... He also added...'Y? Cos no rich guy to look after you ah?' I can still remember when he said 'good nite'... it was so gentle... totally different from wat he portrait himself outside... However that nite i still cant sleep... I am really expecting too much....
Received a sms from Ser @ ard 9am the next morning... found out that she is alone @ East Coast Park... feeling worried... I quickly rush down & acc her... Though I did not help much over there... in fact I myself oso feeling quite troubled... at least one will feel better if your frans are there for you... Glad that she finally decided wat to do... & hope this is not a wrong decision made...
Met Karen later in the evening intending to do waxing, even fixed appointment... but in the end we have to wait for another week or so cos both of us have recently shaved... the hair is too short to do any waxing.. too bad... Headed to Addicted after that since nothing to do on a Sat nite... Jereme & guys will be there as well.. Singapore is so BORING.... Wats there to do at nite... Always have to crack my brain to think wat to do on a Fri & Sat nite... I hate staying at home... so does Karen... she asked if we can stop going drinking.... Can... but where else to go...????
Anyway that nite I am super 'seh'... very long never so 'seh' liao... didnt drink tat much.. but I mixed the drinks... drank Vodka Lime... Chivas.... white wine...
Sorry auntie... supposed to look after you 1.. in the end is the other way round... Tat nite super sad... oso duno y... I miss him terribly but I have to be understanding... he is already troubled w his things... i shouldnt be adding on to it... but I wish he can at least tok it out.... y keep everything to himself... I will try to control myself... not to contact him for the time being... give him time & space to settle/sort out this things...
Back to work tmr... it was indeed a long break for me... time to work hard & keep myself occupied...