**BorinG SundaY**

Have been sleeping alot today... basically I slept from 4pm on Sat till 8am Sun... haha.. more than 12 hrs... super tired... havent been sleeping much for the past week... & guess wat.. i even took a 2 hr nap in the afternoon.. so now quite awake...

Havent been updating my blog frequently... abit lazy ah... anyway will go straight to the pt...

Fri went to Addicted with Saadiah, Elaine, Pat & Andrew... Karen joined us later... Wil, Dimple Guy & gang were there as well... erm toked with Wil awhile... nothing much... no outcome...
Later Thumper Guy came as well... BTW my MP3 player spoiled again.. hai~... this good uncle is going to help to me bring to Jurong for repair... so gd rite.. hehe... Anyway that nite was quite fun... Pat opened Tequila & Martel... see I bring business for Addicted... heard that when I stepped into Addicted tat nite... S immediately told N that 'Addicted's regular is here'... haha.. yaya.. I am considered 1 of the regular there liao... Erm tat nite.. Karen's ex collegues were there as well.. not to forget cute Gwen.. haha.. I like her... she is soooooo cute.... hopefully will see her soon.... erm.. Karen was saying tat N will send her back tat nite... so I dun be light bulb ah... ask Ryan to come fetch me.. & when I reached home to realise tat Karen is left alone at Addicted.. I felt so bad.. quickly ask Thumper Guy to go down fetch her... this uncle really very gd... mus treat him many many nasi lemak liao....haha

**Saadiah... Me... Elaine @ Addicted**

**Saadiah & Me**

Erm heard that there are rumours in the office about TC, me & Elaine... hear liao duno y felt sad.... Afterall he is still under his 3mths probation... I now will pretend nothing happen lor.. in fact nothing happened mah.. Jus tat he came for my bday party tats all... Duno wats exactky the rumours about... but I think is better not to noe ah...

Just toked to Karen... she said tat she yesterday took out the pics to see which we took few mths back... & realise I lost quite alot of weight.. haha... Hearing tat.. I faster take out the neo prints as well to see... erm.. ya lah.. did lost weight... How will not lose weigth if such thing were to happen on them? Let u guys see my fat fat pics & judge ... hehe....

**Wat Am I DoinG...**

I noe I shouldnt be doing this... but in real fact I am getting deeper into it... without realising... Sometimes I will think wat the hell am I doing... Do I really wana be a bitch as well.... ??? Am I game enough to play or not??? What if it ended up getting myself hurt? I dun wana think about all these... but it just automatically come into my mind.... while falling asleep in the bus I would even have images of the impossible in my mind... Think I will be going crazy soon... Can anyone help me get out of all these...? Work sux as well... Basically I have no goal in life at this moment... wats wrong with my life???

**20th Aug ...My Day...**

My actual birthday.... No plans initially on my special day... then decided to meet up with Elaine in the afternoon... & Patrick suggested going Devils @ nite... ok lor... nothing to do anyway mah... basically that nite didnt spend any $$.... drinks are on Pat & frans.... we drank Hennesy w green tea ah.... for the past 2 days have been drinking uncle type of drink... i still find ok lah... anyway I did something unexpected... I kissed someone again...this time round I am not seh... or anything like tat... I am not interested in this person... not @ that time ... not now... jus feel like having someone by my side at that moment bah.. the shocking thing is he asked me' U wan or not?'.. haha... hearing that, i tried to act calm & jus shook my head... but inside me I was still in shock... he mus be crazy ah...

**Elaine & Me**

BTW I coloured & strip my hair... not very nice ah... but not bad lah... hehe... collegues say red color still suit me more... maybe next time lor.....

**My 23rd BiRtHDaY ParTy**

Finally I am here to blog about my birthday party on Friday... Have been a tiring but of cos enjoyable weekend for me... Erm.. the page might take some time to load... simply cos too many pics liao... BTW seems like most pple who took photos tat day doesnt look nice leh compared to real person... haha... including me lor... cos i look 'seh'....

Met Karen about 8plus @ Bugis before we headed down to Addicted... Most of my collegues came before 9... Sadly Rosli & Saadiah didnt come... It will sure be much more fun if they were there... Anyway Patrick opened 2 bottles of Martell... not bad lah.. mixed with green tea... He & Andrew kept asking me to drink... before 10.. i am already half 'seh' liao lor... cannot.. if continue like tat, when strike 12 i dun even noe its my bday liao.. haha.. 'Dimple Guy' , Keith & Wil were there as well... anyway Andrew drank quite alot ah.. 11+ & he is half gone.... I told him I wan TC (our new collegue whom I find him quite cute) to come down... He immediately called him & asked him to come... haha... surprisingly he agreed.. think he give Andrew face ah...
Before 12.. TC was here with his fran... erm forgotten name liao.. haha...

Strike 12, birthday song was played & my birthday cake being brought to my table...its a chocolate cake from Four Leaves... together with a bouquet of roses... so sweet rite? Am touched... Thanx Karen & Stace to make all these happen... After that, Karen forced every guys to give me a birthday kiss... haha.. of cos most of them are those i like 1 ah.. erm Dimple Guy dun look nice in the pics... maybe he half seh liao... Okie ah... dun tok much... think you guys more interested in the pics...


**Peipei & Me**


**He is my SUPERVISOR**


**Karen... Me... Calista.. Stace**


**Peipei & her hubby... Me... Andrew.. Partick**


**He still owes me my bday present**


**Kim... Me ...LeeTing**


**My 2 good buddies**


**LeeTing... Kim**


**Me... Dimple Guy**


**Me & TC**


**Happy Birthday to Me**


**Sweetie CaSsie**

**Stace & Karen tried to push my face in the cake... heng I 'siam'**

**Me & TC again..haha... I took many photos w him**


**I pai sia cos its Dimple Guy's turn**


**Finally kiss from Dimple Guy**


**TC's fran gave a kiss on my hand**


**Keith's turn...**

**My bouquet of roses**


**Happy CaSsie**

**Erik... Me...**

**Cant Wait For FriDaY**

2 more days.. hehe ... am very excited... today met up with Karen for shopping.. .in search of new clothes for Fri.. finally I decided to wear my usual t-shirt & jeans skirt... but I will wear a purple cardigan with it... Haven bought it yet cos when I decided to buy, Mange closed liao... will go down tomorrow with Karen again to get.. hehe... very nice... Karen oso going Zara to buy her black cardigan & wear it on Fri... haha... she equally as excited as me... erm think slightly more than me....

Met 'Thumper Guy' jus now & went for coffee together with Karen.. He never fails to 'suan' me every single meeting.. .but today damn tired & stomach not feeling well.. so give him suan ah... dun care liao... haha... he will soon get tired of it if I no response...

Today found out that my ex-colleague has been reading my blog.... 'Halo Fiza... How have u been? Hope you are doing well'.... :)

**Fucking Monday**

Yesterday went to work & learnt that Elaine's mum has passed away... The moment I heard... kinda shocked.. cos its like Sat I jus saw her & the next day she is gone... However I did not went to the wake cos finished work very late yesterday ... & this afternoon they are going for cremation... but I got to work.. so cant attend...anyway its really difficult when ur closed ones leave u... somemore her mum is still young... however this is part & parcel of life... life still goes on...

Anyway yesterday was fucking busy at work.. & I only slept for 1.5 hrs the previous nite... Tired.. head super heavy.. so many things to do... got to clear up pple's shit ....& the worse thing is watever I have done is not being recognised... I cant stand it anymore... I wana change job.. heard that there wun be quatherly bonus soon... more determined to change job... fucking job.. worked 1 yr plus liao... dun even have increment... wat fucked up job... urgh... My work attitude now is heckcare ah... no need to do so much.. do extra for wat.. oso like tat... not being recognised oso...

Erm... looking forward to Friday.. so are Karen & Stace... In fact Karen seems more excited than me... haha.. Okie.. I have invited some of my collegues to Addicted as well... While I inviting more pple... I feel happy & at the same time scare... haha.. Happy to have more pple coming down.. but scare my pocket hole become bigger & bigger... Told 'Thumper Guy' about it & he is so generous to split the bill with me... so sweet rite.. hehe... Now at least I not tat scare liao... but still have to watch out the drinks that nite...
Last nite the 'Da Ge' I mentioned previously asked me to be his partner for his D&D which is in Nov... haha... ya..still long way.. in fact 3 mths more... but at least give me ample time to slim down mah.. Mus look pretty.. hehe...

Erm duno wat to wear on Friday... Hai~.. headache... Will it be fun on Friday??? Wat if its disappointing how??? I scare i am expecting too much... :X

**Sweetie Cassie**

**Sleeping lesser & lesser**

Have been sleeping very very little these few days.. 3 hrs of slp each day... next day zombie.. bad mood.. restless... & I now simply hate my job...I wan to change job... But so lazy to go find... Hai~ Partly cos Saadiah is leaving the company oso... I oso wish to change to a different environment...

Fri nite went Wala Wala with 'Thumper Guy'.. not fun leh.. I personally dun like it.. so does 'Thumper Guy'... so we stayed there like 1/2 hr before we head for our KTV session... Slept only 3 hrs before I head for work next day...
Went to visit Elaine & her mum @ NUH on Sat after work... Despite me being super shag... Elaine needs someone to accompany her ah... I can understand her feelings... even though I did not do much there, at least I kept her company... make her feel more relax... Stayed there till 10 before heading down to Addicted... Saw dimple guy... happy.. haha.. Talked to his fran Keith as well... erm Keith can actually sang quite well... much better than Dimple Guy.... That nite open a bottle of Tequila... got bonus liao mah.. hehe... Drank quite abit that nite.. & suddenly cried @ Addicted.. Seems like everyone there saw me broke down.. but hackcare ah.. i seh liao mah...

**Me & Karen**


**Karen Looks Seh Leh**

**Karen & Keith... Double 'K's**

**Me & Keith**

Btw I made a new pair of specs... those black plastic frame 1... machiam act geek... haha... wana change image mah... look 'si wen'....



Think me getting lazier to blog liao... dun want to elaborate much....

**Counting Down to my Bday**

8 more days to go.... I am very excited... Waiting for Karen to give me my 'birthday present' on Fri.... Hopefully got ah... I noe its a tough 1.... But can try rite??? :)

**3 days in a row....**

Had an eventful long weekend ...

Fri: Dbl O (unforgetable event..)

Sat: Met up with Elaine @ Suntec --> Went her hse watch Sakura --> Go home Zzzz (damn tired cos cant sleep the previous nite)

Sun: Met 'Thumper Guy' for dinner, coffee, tok cock.... --> Addicted w Stace, Karen & her fran, Al... (saw 'Dimple Guy' & he is really really super cute... dared not to go tok to him though....i am damn shy.. can only admire him @ 1 corner)

Mon: Met Ser & supposedly its shopping day for Ser as I am super broke... In the end I bought a top & made a new pair of plastic black frame specs... haha... its a diff look for me ah.. good mah.. change image... Spend ard $200 tat day... Anyway after that Stace jio watch fireworks @ Esplanade.. so I took the bus down from Orchard... but she cant make up her mind... 1 min watch firework.. next min watch movie... finally she dun wana meet liao... Za bo.. dun dua me again okie???... In the end I went Elaine's hse....mood wasnt good at that point of time... cos found out that Wil actually got gf... maybe I shldnt take so serious lor... afterall he is high tat nite oso mah... Anway, after a while @ Elaine's place, Karen jio Addicted... She quarrelled with A again... so i of cos on ah... Many pple were @ Addicted on Monday... Soon saw Dimple Guy.. & this time round.. Wil was there as well... vain Karen felt uncomfortable in her office wear so ask her 'da ge' who jus arrived Addicted to send her home to change.. haha.. so I told Wil that he got to enterain me for about half an hr lor.. till Karen is back.. I can still tok to Wil as per normal.. but not Dimple Guy.. I just feel shy... At the end of the nite, Dimple Guy jio us go Mac eat.. of cos go lah.. haha... By that time most pple is alittle seh ah.. but Wil was the worst.. think he cant hold his alcohol well.. Anyway I was sitting in front of Wil with another fran of his beside him while waiting for Dimple Guy, Karen & her 'da ge' to get the food... When they came, Dimple Guy shouted 'Y are u sitting there?'.. Then he lower his voice 'I very mean hor'... haha.. think he 'seh' oso liao... 'ya lor... U very mean leh' was my reply to him... He then said 'Come sit here'.. he pointed to the seat in front of him.. haha.. I am happy ah.. that nite I get to see his diff expressions .. the way he tok was oso more open.. & though he did not shave that day.. He is still very very very cute... Ya.. I have a very hugh crush on him... Thinking about tat nite simply puts a smile on my face... As for Wil, he oso very funny... Too seh until duno wat he doing ah... He can simply drink black tea w/o sugar & with wasabi.. That nite was quite fun ah...
Btw there is this er xin guy which I duno Y i gave him my num oso... abit high then.. very regret....

Tues: Stace sms-ed in the afternoon jio go out.. So ended up @ Kbox with her & Karen.. then we met Stace's long time fran for dinner... Our last hangout was Addicted.. Apparently its 3 consecutive nites we been there... Disappointingly, Dimple Guy was not there... Anyway the er xin guy was there.. we pretend we duno him... haha very bad hor.. who cares.. BTW He called me before that in the afternoon & told me many things about Dimple Guy.. Seems like Dimple Guy likes a regular @ Addicted who is only 16yrs old.. erm... weird rite? 9 yrs difference leh.. I duno ah.. Anyway for me, though sad but I noe he can only be looked at but cant be touched lor...
So we went off ard 11.. & slept ard 2.. super tired... & guess wat... @ 0412 hrs , my hp rang.. & its that er xin guy.. wah lau.. he no need to slp ah.. I need to lor... Angrily, I hang up his call.. He kept calling leh.. afternoon call.. jus now oso call.. piang... so obvious that I avoiding his call liao mah...

'Thumper Guy' came to fetch me for dinner just now... actually he tot of having it nearby 1.. anyway he damn choosy lah... so he finally decided on Sakae lor... & I asked him to go to the Bugis branch ... though Hougang oso have... (ya.. btw Dimple Guy stay @ Hougang oso leh..haha)... okie.. after our dinner, I kept psycho-ing 'Thumper Guy' to go Addicted with me... but too bad he got appointment later.. so bo pian lor.. but its like wasted lor.. since I am so near Addicted liao.. hai~... Maybe its a good thing afterall lah... dun see Dimple Guy so often.. slowly will 4get about him... Thumper Guy say he is helping me by doing this lor.. dun wan to see me sad again..I noe its for my own good lah... but I cant help wanting to see my cutie Dimple guy leh...

BTW Karen promised me that on my bday that nite, she will wrap Dimple Guy & give it to me... haha... I happily on her.. I oso wan a hug & kiss from him as well leh... Waiting for next Friday to come... :) Not to forget, dear franz.. remember my present leh... haha...

**Me @ Addicted**


**Stace & Me**

**Karen & Stace**

**Karen & Me**

**Finally all 3 of us together**

**SurprisinG AcT**

Karen called yesterday morning saying that Jeremy's fran Wil emailed her.. asking us if wana join them at Dbl O in the nite... Erm.. We got to noe Wil from our last Tues niteout @ Addicted.. Chatted alittle & Karen gave him her namecard... thats y he emailed her lor... Erm anyway Karen cant make it & as for me.. I 'gain' clubbing... so psycho Stace to come along with me...

Reached Dbl O ard 10+.. Free entry for us.. Thanks to my collegue who sent me the sms... Spotted Jeremy & his frans... hang ard there for awhile when Stace asked if wana hop over to MW.. cos the music not tat nice ah... erm.. though I abit unwilling cos of the cutie.. I told her we see how lor.. at least wait for Wil to come & say hi to him before we go mah.. afterall he is the one who asked us to come down... So I asked Jeremy wat time is Wil coming... He said duno... ok lor.. we will wait then.. Not long after, the cutie came over & ask me to sms Wil... 'For wat?' was my reply... He said he msg him but no reply.. therefore ask me to msg instead... erm got diff meh? Of cos I didnt do it lah... we jus continue to wait lor... As expected Jeremy is surrounded with many gers... & in fact he is quite touchy.. the sad part is he nvr really touch me leh... haha... I desperate ah... Think I am the only ger he nvr touch lor... So sad rite???

Finally Wil came & by that time the music was nicer... so we stayed... I drank quite abit ah... basically cos I am thirsty... didnt realise how much I drank...kept frequenting the ladies though ... & there were times when Stace & I came back from the dance floor or toilet, Wil will ask where did we go? He tot we left liao... He even went dance floor to find us... haha... we not tat rude to leave without telling them lah... Okie so Stace & I went to the dance floor & continue dancing .. where this time round we are joined by Wil.. then all a sudden there is this Jap guy who came tok to me... erm maybe I abit 'seh' liao ah.. I entertain him lor... somemore tok to him very happily leh.. haha... Stace whispered to me 'Happy liao ah?' Wil asked if I am ok? Yup I am ok... Noe wat I am doing lor... So toked with the Jap guy for awhile then continue dancing... & all a sudden, I found myself hugging Wil... yup we were hugging together & the next second, we were kissing in the middle of the dance floor.... I oso cant believe I did tat... Think I jus felt sad suddenly & wanted to find someone to hug.... I think Wil oso abit 'seh' liao ah... Anyway Stace tried several attempts to pull me away.. finally she succeed... After that she kept pulling me a distance from Wil... Yup... I noe she wana protect me & appreciate it...

Overall I have an enjoyable nite out... Though I did something which I thought I would never have done... Slept at 3 plus last nite... but woke up ard 7+... I mus be siao to wake up so early rite... haha.. I cant slp leh... I am tired but just cant slp... Then sms-ed Karen & Stace for awhile.. Was about to slp back when a new sms came in... its Wil... should I be surprised? But he oso siao like me ah... wake up so early... haha... Anyway he will join us tomorrow @ Addicted if he can make it... Will it be awkward to see him again? I dun think so ah... Pretend nothing happen lor... haha...

Time to slp... That is if I can fall asleep... Nitez....

**Addicted Aga|N**

Was relaxing at home last nite when got a call from Karen.... She is somewhere near Addicted & just nice also got a msg from S saying that Jeremy is there.... Erm so since nothing to do & Mummy wun be home early oso... I decided to go down lor... so faster dressed up, hopped into a cab & rushed down... Before that, Karen kept sms-ing me to faster come before Jeremy go off liao.. yaya.. We are like desperate gers... erm or am I the only 1? Anyway the main reason for me going down is purely I am bored lor... Seriously ah... :)

Reached Addicted ard 9+.. Jeremy was there playing pool.. Erm initially see like not tat nice liao leh... But when he came over for a chat, thats when I get to see him closed up again... woah...He is really damn cute... okie... I finally know his age... heng.. not younger than me ah...haha... get to know alittle more of him....Chatted with some of his franz as well... They seems not bad ah...but of cos Jeremy is the best lah...haha... Anyway as promised previously, Karen bought them a jug of beer... For us, I drank a mug of Kilkenny... Then psycho Karen to drink tequila shot.. followed by beer... Think Karen drank too fast, she become 'seh' straight after that... Then start toking nonsense... Finally when I managed to get 'Thumper Guy' to come down & fetch us home... She dun wan to go home with me.. instead she wana take cab with her ex-colleagues (who are at Addicted as well)... erm maybe she too 'seh' or wat.. so in the end I went off with 'Thumper Guy'.. Karen went off with her colleagues...

During the ride home, I felt so guilty... scare 'Thumper Guy' angry... afterall he just reached home for a while only before I asked him to come down just to fetch us & worse still he was very tired... And when he reached Addicted, he had to wait for us like 15 mins or more lor... (his temper not very good 1 lor.. so I oso scare scare...) Also 'something' happened (cannot say... secret...) which made me even more guilty... even though he said that he doesnt mind... & is not angry at all... He said he will still come down & fetch me home with or without that 'something' happening... Erm but still I cant help feeling guilty... anyway owe this uncle a treat lah... he wants fine dinning... sorry ah... xiao mei mei over here cant afford... so got to make do with Punggol Nasi Lemak ah.... haha..

At Addicted last nite, Karen asked me how many times we came Addicted liao ah? 'erm, lost count liao leh' was my reply... Then she casually said 'Seems like u haven come out a single cent since day 1 we are here hor...' haha... ya I admit.. Have not been paying for the drinks... So ok lah.. I promised Karen when I get my bonus (probably next week), drinks will be on me.. Okie ger???

Tired... Go slp liao.. Nitez....