Here I am at home on the eve of a public holiday whereas my colleagues are clubbing like hell... but I am not at my Aunt's home lah.. I am sitting on Dear's bed now typing this entry... :) He has gone jogging... So long never blog at his place liao... didnt expect that I can do it again...

Jus now went to see doc cos stomach has been feeling very uncomfortable since Friday... doc is saying most likely due to indisgestion & my stomach sensitive lor... shld be lor... kept heading to the toilet over the weekend, esp Sat... eat wat, come out wat... Before we went out on Sunday to pass his cousin things, he asked me if I confirm wana go out or not... later got to go around finding toilet again... :p

We suppose to go to the Food Fair yesterday however Dear finished work quite late so we met @ Tampines instead for our dinner.... :(

Jus now brought some clothes over to Dear's place... at least next time in future, got clothes to change for the next day when I stay over... else ma fan got to go home & change then go out...

Tmr most probably go watch Shrek... get his hp.. he changed target liao.. its still Samsung but model U600... I agree its much nicer... :) & I got to go 'tong tong' oso... collecting the series of doggy on 6 different rides... very cute.. I am still short of 2.....

I feel loved by him.... I was telling Aini that last time I am the one who wans to stay over at his place & have to tell him tat I dun feel like going home... else he expect me to go home.... but now different liao... last Fri depite he working the next day, he asked 'u r staying over tonight rite?' Even yesterday, he oso asked the same... erm... can really see a change in his attitude... Aini said like as if back to honeymoon period & of cos thats gd... :) Ya... he treats me good & loving... Jus now before he went jogging, I asked him to buy slurpee if he goes 7-11... he said most likely not... & ask wat else I wan... I said nothing ah.. i jus thirsty... He told me to make ribena drink ah... he bought 1 big bottle a few days ago... I told him lazy ah... he then went to make for me... so sweet rite? I never expect him to go make lor when i pass the remark... expecting him to say' u siao ah.. go make urself lah'.......... haha....definitely a change.... happy happy happy..........

Jus taken lunch & boring ah.. so make a short post here lor... hehe... slept at 9pm last nite... really tired ah... even this morning in the bus oso can sleep & knock my head against the window...
Dear called last nite after his jogging.... Tok cock awhile before I went back to slp... before hanging up, he said tmr see how ah.... i like huh? in my mind thinking, see how tmr meeting or not izzit?? Then he said tmr see how go where lah.... Oh.. thats wat he meant ah.... Y am i glad?? Cos everytime I am the one tat will confirm if next day we are meeting.... but this time round, he said it.... :) though he did mention before that if he wun be meeting me tat day, he will tell me beforehand 1... but still in a way, he is like looking forward to meet me leh...
Have been updating Saadiah about my relationship... Dear's actions etc.... She asked me if he has changed like last time or better than that.... erm I cannot really answer that.. but its definitely better lor... I can see the change in him... :)


GSS has started.. erm but have noting in mind to buy leh... not really excited about it as well... scarely can save money ah... haha ...

So much wanted to blog @ work today.. cos was quite free & tired due to not enough slp... wana make myself awake by blogging however boss is around the whole day....

Okie... start from Tuesday.. I reached home & my aunt was watching TV in the living room... as usual I went to bath... after finish, I wanted to hang my clothes when I passed by my aunt's room... erm its dark inside however I spotted a figure sitting on the bed.... only to realise that its my mum... think she jus woke up... & she came up to me & said 'Give back me the keys.. my things going to settle soon.....' & she went back to the room... I quickly hang my clothes, took the keys except the letter box 1, & pass to my aunt.... My aunt told me y dun pass to my mum directly... I ignored, went straight to my room & locked myself... Minutes later, my aunt kept knocking on the door.... I continued to ignore.... Believe my mum asked her to ask me about the letter box key... I initially felt very angry when I saw my mum... & also felt she aged alot.... abit pity but there is muc more anger.... after that I cried.... felt sad & hurt... y must things end up like tat.... I locked myself in the room the whole nite.... I was thinking how will she be feeling when she left my aunt's place last nite.... Her own daughter who do not wan to see her at all... will she feel sad as well??? Next morning my uncle asked if I tok to my mum.. erm... mus be my aunt tell him 1 ah.... if my mum had really wanted to tok to me..... her first sentence to me is not to demand the keys back already... if she had thought over it previouly, she would not have raise to me about money issue already... but in the end she still did... does she really wan things to end up in such horrible manner??? Toked to Dear that nite.... though he couldnt help anything but he is there to lend me a listening ear... This is enough & he accompany me tok so that I dun brood over it.... :) I finally told him that I have been staying at my aunt's place... I dun wan to bluff him anymore ah.... tok to him about my mum again yesterday over dinner... well as usual, he never comment much except that if he were me, he will give my mum a slap... haha... but he told me not to think about it already... else I no appetite again.. later dun wana eat & have gastric again... & while saying, he kept feeding me eat.... hehe.... Like tat enough liao, I am happy....

We went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean last nite... its a 2210hrs show & lasted for 3 hours.. the show not bad ah.. but I prefer SpiderMan... Dear said both movies are equally nice... well the monkey in the Pirates is definitely very cute.... hehe.... by the time show ended, is already 1am plus.... we still need to work the next day.... anyway stayed over at his place... cos first of all is nearer, secondly I dun like to give my aunt's dog bark..esp late at nite & wake the whole family up.... & most importantly, I wana spend more time with Dear.... :)

When reached his place, cant slp ... probably past sleeping time liao lor.... anyway forced myself to slp... think in the end 3+ then fell aslp.... woke up at 7.30 this morning... but kept waking up in between... this explains my tiredness today... with very heavy head as well.... actually while typing this entry, I can feel my head getting heavier again.... back to this morning, before I left for work, kissed him jus like the past... & he sleepily pull me down beside him & hug/kiss me.... jus so loving..... He has made me happy & feel loved these few weeks... esp after Genting trip.... & I can tell that he is happy as well.... Hoping & wishing everything will remain as its now... :)

Back to blog... pple who read my blog (if there is) might jus get sick of my posts.. cos I jus simply tok about my daily activities... nothing special.. but i dun care .. cos I wana be remembered of watever have happened... esp happy moments.. :)

continued from last sat whereby I went to PS for hair treatment... I reached there around 1.45pm when Dear called me at 2pm & ask if I am done... haha.. obviously no... so he came down to meet me at 3.30pm.... after which we headed to Toa Payoh to check out the hp prices... he is eyeing the Samsung SGH-Z720... yup... the 1 that I initally wanted to buy... well we spent less than an hr there... before we headed to Bugis... ya.. He see things damn fast 1.... he will get it during his next pay day... :) Once we reached Bugis, started our usual routine... walked to Suntec then Marina whereby bought tickets for '28 Weeks Later'.... Before that went Candy Empire & bought 2 cups of jelly beans for each of us.... :) Dear loves it... so do I.... 'ai wu ji wu' ma... Asked Dear if wana go holiday tis yr... really felt like going HK or Taiwan... but he said cant... cos he does not have leave at the moment.. well his company function abit different ah... the current period u have worked till = how many days of leave u can take at the moment... no advanced leave... so this yr he left with 4 days & that can only be taken when he worked till Dec.... only can wait till next yr then see how... Dear said can go lor... but those short 1 whereby Fri go... Sun come back.. sian leh....Really eager to go esp HK... I wana go Disneyland....
Anyway back to the movie.. well normal ah... nothing much to comment.... soso lor...

Went to his place after that.. Spent my whole Sunday there... Dear early morning went to play soccer liao... whereas me continue slping.... when he is back at 2pm, I jus woke up for lunch... after which fell aslp again... he oso fell aslp... hehe... 6+ he woke up to prepare dinner.... :) I love it when he cooked for me.... so sweet.... after that fell aslp in his arms again.... felt so comfortable with him around me that I could jus continue sleeping the whole day... sweetly.... :)
Asked Dear if I look better with my hair rebond(cos I will always ask the stylist to straighten my hair after treatment)... he said look nicer... but more ah lian oso.... :( I asked if he prefer I rebond or remain... well he prefer to leave as present.... so okie... I listen to him.....

Suppose to meet Ser today for dinner... I agreed however after that half -hearted... very tired ah.. esp in the morning... One of my staff is on training.. so I got to back up her.. Being a Monday, I got to run here & there... damn busy.... so I msg Ser to postpone to tmr instead... Didnt realise that she didnt receive my msg & she called me after work.... Sorry ger.. Didnt mean it... Really tired....
On the other hand, after I have msg Ser, Dear called & asked if I am busy today & if I wana meet him later... erm without thinking, I ask y? & is it that he not meeting me this Wed? Thats y wana make up for it.... he said no... hum... of cos I hear this I happy ah....actually very happy... its a surprise to me as well.... then believe he was busy after that.... say will call me later....ok lor... later on, around 6 he called & ask where I wana meet him or dun wana meet him.... wah.. he make it sound as if I am the one who wans to meet leh.... anyway we met at Tampines.... wana see him, moreover he has injured his leg.... poor boy... the sharp edge of the cargo poked his leg which kena a hole in it & cut right down.... Doc said might need stitches.. well will see how after 2 days.... when I saw him, he was limping... we had dinner then went home liao... when I reached home, finished bathing.... he called me... & asked y didnt I call him when I reached home... erm I jus bath finished mah... wats the hurry....hehe.... anyway I am happy that he is concerned... okie.. got to slp soon... long day today ah... although not tat long, but work has taken alot of active brain cells today... Nitez......

P.S: I start to miss him already....

Here I was waiting for 1230 to knock off... so this will be a very short entry.. jus to kill time only.... will be going to do hair treatment with Ser.. it was a last minute arrangement cos Dear still wans to continue sleeping... tok to him jus now.. watever i ask him.. he simply jus reply dreamingly ... 'erm'.. ok lah... I understand... shall meet him later then...

Met him yesterday to catch the movie 'Blades of Glory'.... nice comedy... I proudly told Dear that I did not fell asleep for this movie leh... haha... cos the movie dun have any slow scences which allow me to...hehe...

Okie.. 1230 liao.. got to go catch transport liao....

Think my stomach getting weaker... Have been feeling very uncomfortable these few days... feel bloated & always 'la tu zi'.... Actually since I moved to his place last yr, I keep having frequent diahorrea & vommiting.... Now even when I eat too full, will even 'lao zai' leh... In fact while typing this entry, my stomach is in pain.. :(

Watched 'Bridge to Terabithia' yesterday with Dear... bought the tickets first since I reached before him.. I jus told the guy over at the counter that I wan a pair of tixs for 'Bridge to Terabitha'... gave him my card.. happily signed & collected the tixs w/o looking at it.... then went to meet Dear.... when he met me, he hugged & kissed me... love the feeling.... felt loved... hehe.. ok.. so we went for dinner & after which he asked for the tixs... well I oso dun like to keep ah... i scare losing it... so I passed to him....& he took a closer look at it... erm the tixs are for 1845hrs movie!!!!! I actually wanted the 2115 hrs one lor... heng the tixs got state what time they were printed... imagine I bought the tixs @ 1918hrs & the person at GV can give me 1845hrs w/o even asking me... piang... isn'it common sense that most pple would want the next available time slot... if u cant confirm, then ask lah.....
Well back to the movie.. erm not really what I have expected it to be lor... cos the preview like very fantasy... however when watched liao.. hai~.. Watever fantasy in the movie can be seen in the preview already ... nothing more... its a disappointment... I looking forward in watching 'Glory of Blades'.. Hope it wun disappoint me... We took a cab after the movie... Dear looked so tried on the way back so I asked the cab driver to stop over at his place first... If only I was still staying at his place... hai~ Since our Genting trip, have been tinking of moving back to his place... I noe its not a wise decision... but I miss him so much after the trip... I do not want to control him on the time he spent w his frans... I jus wana see him... last time when I was staying his place, I dread going back when I noe he is not back home yet.... but now, if time to turn back, I would not mind it... I will just wait patiently at home for him to come back cos I simply jus wana see him...hug him.. kiss him... Believe previously was becos I need company but now just seeing him makes me happy (even he would probablybe playing PS2 at home)..... I can actually keep saying 'I love you' to him without getting tired cos thats indeed how I feel... I am the type whom would want to let my bf noe how I feel 1 lor... Dear would noe very well that this is me.... He might be sick with the long talks when I feel something is wrong... but its me lor... something not right, got to voice out mah... I dun like to keep to myself & dwell about it....

Tmr friday finally.... but duno meeting him or not cos he got company dinner.. duno until wat time.. but he did say if i wan, still can meet lah... jus cannot confirm the time only... hmm.... i Sat got to work leh... shall see how lor....
I just cant stop telling him .....................

I m back from Genting... happy times always pass so quickly.... Didnt went to the theme park afterall... he dun feel like playing & i oso start to scare when I saw the rides.... on the first day there, vomitted the whole nite... oso duno issit cos of the food... but he oso ate the same thing... jus suddenly felt my stomach very bloated... even vomitted the medicine I took after 5 mins... so rested in the hotel room the whole nite... next day went to the casino.. spent the whole day there... not much luck... won abit initially but after which lost.. sad... the last day tried our luck again before catching the coach... but too bad..still no luck... hai~~~ Despite lost money, I enjoyed my trip there especially with him... though small actions like always holding my hand (he very long no hold liao), it makes me happy... Still remember when on the coach to Genting, I was looking at my hp when suddenly he came over just to give me a kiss... its so sweet... :)

Forgotten to mention, I dreamt of him & the bitch on our 2nd nite @ Genting... I hate the feeling in it & glad that its a nitemare... Yesterday on our way back in the cab, thought about the 1st & 2nd time when we went Genting.... tears started to flow down... Remembered the 1st time I was still staying at my home... 2nd time at his place & now I end up at my aunt's place.... just felt pathetic... & this feeling was so strong jus now when I was on my way back from his place... he is going to his fran's house though he did not tell me... & the sad part is he never ask me to go along... y??? His frans dun like me??? Dun he noe that I am staying all alone now & does he understand the feeling??? I need someone who can give me the security... I am not saying about financially but some1 I can rely on when I need him... When I am jus feeling so pathetic.. so all alone in this world.... I felt much more upset when I recalled he can even previously ask the bitch if she wans to join him & his fran for dinner.... but y not me???? I make him lose face???? There are so many questions in my mind which I wan to ask him.. but i noe I cant... Finally I sms-ed him... asking y dun he ask me along when he go out with him frans.. but till now he have not replied... I have been hesitating whether to sms or not initially..cos I dun wan to spoil the happy times in Genting but I cant help it... this is bothering me... Can he give me the security I wan??? I dun need anything except him by my side & be true to me.... Is this too much to ask????

Here I am blogging again... :) this time got work to do ah... but dun feel like doing it at the moment.. bo bian.. boss on leave these few days so I oso damn slag... jus dun feel like doing anything... :P

Went to meet Ser yesterday at Clark Quay... since she will be there only around 8 so I went Chinatown to change money... still find the rates there higher... walked down to Central shopping center... Its a big building but very EMPTY & QUIET.... plus my arms & tighs are aching... duno y... just felt the muscle straining... Finally had our dinner @ Mahatten Fish Market... walked around Clark Quay before heading home...

Forgotten to mention that Central has a shop which from the outside is very blink blink... went in & saw that they are actually selling couple rings & necklace... Its really very nice & was thinking if by Dec we are still together , I will buy that for Xmas present... not cheap u noe... 1 ring cost around $200 leh... we previously have couple ring oso... but cheap cheap 1... hehe... moreover never wear liao... even before our breakup... :( so sad...

Erm duno wat to blog liao... thats the bad thing about blogging daily.. run out of wat to say... :p later meeting Ser for dinner @ Junction 8.. believe I will be there much earlier than her... so I should be shopping around there first lor... probably got to go home tonight & do packing...else I will only be left with tomorrow nite... & I can forsee that will be busy tomorrow.. got meeting in the morning & somemore got to give one of our overseas colleague & overview... so should not be blogging tmr liao... ok.. got to end here & concentrate on work liao....

Boring is the word to describe my mood now... Despite being a Monday today, have nothing much to do **touchwood** in fact I have finished what that needs to be done before lunch time... i very efficient 1 mah... haha.. erm lets tok what I have been doing the past few days.. so long no update my activities liao....

Erm start from last Fri bah... well watched 'The Hills have Eyes 2' with him... He heard from his frans tat it's a very gore movie..so he wanted to see.. haha.. he is bian tai mah... me being the timid 1... will be always grabbing his arms esp those frightening scenes.. Remembered once when I was watching a horror flick & my arm was wrapped round him... suddenly my hand slap his chest when I kena scared... :p ok... back to fri... despite being a short date with him, I am happy... :)

As for sat, I got to work.. met up with Ser after that to do hair treatment.. Tracy came along since she do not have any programs as well... however Ser got to go off around 6+ since she is forced to go to her grandma's place to show face... so Tracy & I continued shopping.. bought 2 tops & some lingerie... spend $200.00 that day.... urgh... really no money liao.. bonus quick come... actually wanted to go clubbing after that... however didnt expect to buy so many stuffs later part of the day....so went home first lor... For me, if i go home liao.. very lazy to go out again 1.. so i kinda played my fran out lor.. believed he wun ask me go clubbing liao... so went home.. pack my stuffs & slept at 11+... early for a Sat nite rite??? :)


Went Ikea with him on Sunday to get mirror... cos my room has no mirror for me to 'hiao' in front of.. so poor thing rite??? I always use the reflections of the window & this could only be done in the nite... :(
Ate my favourite swedish meatballs at there.... yum yum... then walked around & gotten my mirror which can just stick on the wall.. no need all the drilling & screws... went to his place to rest & watch tv... sweet evening spent with him...i lying on his lap until it cramps... hehe... hugging him & the occasional muacks we exchanged... cant wait for wed to come... though I going Genting on thursday.. but will be spending my nite with him on wed then leave for Genting from his place.... *Sweet sweet*... I yearning for more sweet & happy moments with him.. I just cannot stop holding & hugging him... :)

P.S: i just mentioned to Sharon that I am afraid to tell pple that I am happy cos I scare after which I wun be.... funny logic rite? But thats what I thought lor... anyway I am REALLY happy now... !!!!

Today went to Orchard after work to meet Ser & oso wana take the hair iron however the seller forgotten to bring it out... :( No straight hair tmr.. haha... everyone in office was saying I look better in straight hair (cos that time do hair treatment mah.. so the hair stylist went to straighten my hair)... but I oso dun wana do rebonding leh... straight hair sumtimes oso sian... so I decided to get a hair iron instead... erm sat then can get from the seller... anyway finally went to Forever 21 to get my jeans which I believed I had bought it 1mth ago, sent for alteration & till todate then collect... haha

As usual, went to COACH, LV & GUCCI to see see... erm tot of getting a bag... heard bonus is coming next week or at least latest by 3rd week of May... haha... though I am in debt already.. I still cannot resist the temptation of getting 1... initally tot of jus target 1 first.. in the end bought 1... saw this bag previously & liked it... Finally today without thinking I bought it... this cost much more than the first Gucci bag I bought... $1360... I noe its not worth it, moreover its cloth material except for the handle which is real leather... well did though of buying LV speedy... much cheaper .... came out a range which is also fabric material... i liked the black color 1.. but its jus so common lor... today jus 3 hours in Orchard, I can see so many pple carrying the same bag.... so I still prefer my new bag below... Love it... :)

Exactly a week later I will be on my way to Genting... well though its Genting only really looking forward to it... wana relax & play those rides which previously I wouldnt dare.. Just thinking about the heights make me nervous... Nonetheless, I will still wana try.... :)

Actually wanted to blog this afternoon at work... erm have the kinda relived feeling at work after so long... prevoiously despite physically working however mind isn't concentrating on work, in fact it always went wild on other stuffs... Today for once, I did not think about us... at least not those negative tots... felt really at ease & can joke with my staffs... back to the old Cassie... hehe...Well reason being yesterday I spent an enjoyable day with him... Despite not doing much plus walking here & there aimlessly, I enjoyed... haha... Jus simply spending time with him can make me smile though only slept 3 hours that day before meeting him... Yup.. went clubbing the previous nite... went to so many places tat nite... butter factory, velvet, mos & living room @ Marriot... after which still had bak ku teh first before reaching home at 8am... the best part is I do not have to spend a single cent.... :)

Okie... back to I & him.. had a long tok with him again... duno how many toks I have with him liao... but this time round, I got to at least know more about him... & I am glad he told me about it.... its a good start isn't it... rather than he keep everything all to himself... :) Really looking forward to next week... Quick come..... hehe....