**Go TempLe Bai Bai**

Today went to "Si Ma Lu Guan Yin" temple to bai bai... Ser told me before that she went there to 'qui qian' before & very 'zhun'. Since today Vincent wants to go 'bai bai' as he's starting his new job... I accompany him also ah... Also want to go 'qiu qian'. After shaking the container of 'qians' countless times , I managed to 'qiu' a successful 1. Here's what it says.....

Lot 42 ----> Interpretation: GOOD

The sky Diety gives you advice, from the beginning till the end. Forget not let your heart be firm at all times an do worship.

I briefly read thro the book about my 'qian'. Didnt really remember much of it though but this sentence vividly remains in my head, i.e "Finding things that are lost is in vain". Does this means I & him will never be back together again? I gave Stace see my 'qian' & she interprets it as God has everything planned & I have to believe him that whatever he does will be good for me. So does this means I & him are not meant to be afterall? Anyway this is supposely a good 'qian', so maybe things aren't that bad for me....

Finally went for my classes with Stace today. Its been roughly 1 mth that we have not been going & yup... both of us getting fatter... Today's Step Workout & is fully packed... in fact its over packed... In the end, instructor decided not to use any stepboard as its occupying too much space... So we did some abdominal & leg exercise.. Overall is okie.. didnt sweat much though...

Will have to go back work tomorrow... Sian~... But come to think of it... I only have to work 3 days before my next off day... Yeah!!! Nitez....

**EnjoyabLe DayOut**

Yesterday went to an exhibition which I dun think I would ever tot of going... its the "AQUARAMA 2005". Went there with Vincent (I have not met him for years) as he is very into fishes... Suprisingly Expo was packed with people. I was thinking cannot be so many people of all ages so interested in fishes meh... And it turns that most of them are there because of the Food Fair or the MPH Book Sale...However I feel that the AQUARANA exhibit was okay but Vincent found it disappointing. Expert leh.. confirm have high expectations mah...

Below are a few interesting pics taken.

~~Guppies also like Carivals leh~~

We went Cineleisure for our dinner before catching "Monster-In-Law". Knowing that it will my treat, Vincent skipped breakfast & lunch so that he can eat to his heart's content. Haha~. Anyway I got a Suki Sushi $50 voucher so dun waste it.

Food was not bad & we eaten many 'red' plates... In the end, we only need to pay $3.85 extra after having so much delicious food.

"Monster-In-Law" was okay... typical comedy movie... didnt expect much from it as well before watching... Since both of us didnt feel like going home yet & were in a drinking mood, I immediately suggested MW (my favourite place).

At there, we order lychee martini & Kilkenny (an Irish beer). Kilkenny was not bad, not as bitter as the usual Tiger or Heniken. We mainly spend our time chatting, as not many people were at the dance floor.

Finally we headed home around 2.30 am. Enjoyed the day even though I tends to think of 'him' occasionally. Thanx Vincent for spending an enjoyable day with me.

**TotallY Shattered**

Went shopping with Ser today. Headed to BakerzInn to fill our stomach first so got energy to shop mah.... Anyway didnt buy much though, spent about $60 plus... devil Ser kept psycho-ing me to buy more... No $$ how to buy more....

Anyway we shopped till around 9 plus then we headed to Mac for dinner. Then suddenly my mood swing again... Its always between 9 to 12 that I start to feel depressed. This is the time whereby he will always call me... I really missed him very much... The last time I contacted him was on Thursday...Its like only been 1 day that I did not contact him but its seems so f**king long....

In the end I called him when I reached home. We talked as per normal, mainly about me intending to get a shih tzu... Then he told me he got to go back to work... I then asked him, 'Do you miss me?', which I badly wans to know. Disappointingly, he said 'No. I will call you if I miss you.' At that instance, my heart shattered. Aft 3.5 yrs together, he dun even miss me a damn bit. For the past 3.5 yrs, I have been a failure in relationship. He really disappoint me. From that moment onwards, I told myself never to contact him again.
NEVER EVER!!!
I dun wan to continue being a fool. I deleted his messages, his number (though I can still remember in my head), photos, everything from my hp. However I can't stop myself thinking of all the happy memories we had, the promises he made.. every single thing reminds me of him... For now I just have to let myself cry all out until I fall asleep each night. Hope this does not last too long...

P.S: To Ser :"Enjoy ur Genting trip with Garfield.... Hope to see you soon... Thanx for being there when I am down..."